It's ELISE!

Sunday, December 27, 2009

@ 4:33 PM

Merry Christmas!

Its been a tiring and dreamy week for mi, i would say. Being an usher for the first time brings me joy and a sense of fulfillment that im contributing to the KOG. However, when a crowd of people suddenly flood in, i felt faint. haha. Nevertheless, i did my best despite my hurting hemstrings and walk as professionally as i know how. :)

Im having a movie marathon. For the past two days, ive watched Sherlock Holmes and Bodyguards and Assassins. The shows are full of wit and loyalty respectively. And im gonna watch Alvin And the Chipmunks later! Whee! I think its gonna be so cute! :D

And, ive been a little moody these days due to fatigue. Alittle quieter than usual and alittle fiery when pissed. Haha. But thanks to DO (David Ong), he could sense it and doing his best to cheer me up! Thank you!

Okay, im gonna rest before meeting them. Till then. Busy busy week ahead with overnight cycling and badminton! :D

elise

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

@ 2:43 AM

Okay! The exciting thing God has plant in me!

Well, all of you here alr knows that ive asked for an itouch for a pressie. Now, this is what happens. EVERYONE knows im an IT retard. I dun even know how to set up itunes! And ive asked helpful jinqi to give mi a hand. (THANK YOU for your precious help, seriously) And there's still so many things i could do with it but bececause of my lack of knowledge for IT, the itouch remained untapped.

Spiritually speaking, sometimes i asked God for a big dream, just a dream, and God makes it happen. For eg: planting church. Like im able to go and all lar. I realised that i am not equipped with the knowledge and the skills im required for it. But God is faithful, He will send somebody to guide me, to spoonfeed me for awhile but ultimately, this dream belongs to me! So ive gotta claim the rights and make it mine. To learn everything and use it to the maximum impact, just like the itouch. :)

So, i really think that the gift has a significant reason-for God to speak to my life, and to bless me.

Lesson learnt: Do not ask too big a gift when u are not prepared. But when God gives it to you nevertheless, He wants you to learn the process the hard way.

And mind you, planting churches are not as easy as we think it is. The cultural difference, language, comfort zone, etc etc.

Question is, are we prepared for the gift?

elise

@ 2:04 AM

What a nice rainy night. Here i am, searching and talking to myself on why do i have a blog? Who's supposed to be in it? Why are some people in or some out? Well, i have no solid answer.

Ive deleted some readers from it simply cos they don't contribute to my life anymore. Or should i put it in a tactful way that they don't value friendship as much as i do? I hope its not one of the emo days again. Basically, this blog is supp to be one where i can voice out my unhappiness, joy, happenings, secrets without being judged. And yes, i am very afraid of being judged. I dunno why, but i guess cos im a people pleaser.

10 things you should know about me. ( very honest truth)
I am:
1) very prideful
2) either overly sensitive or totally insensitive.
3) impatient
4) one who sees that justice be done
5) naive (i believe in fairy tales)
6) vengeful
7) one who speaks my mind
8) carefree
9) simple. But people made things complicated and therefore i became complicated.
10) hard on myself and others. (critical?)

I can be a joy sometimes tho. I very much believed in ' to the Jew, i became like a Jew' theory. If u are nice to me, i am nice to you. And practically, monkey see, monkey do.

Am i like scaring you guys out there? I am just being brutally honest. you know, sometimes i wonder whether my blog has an impact on you guys or am i just sharing information about my life. And, truth be told, my life may not be as exciting as some out there.

My life, does it really interest you? Or you just want to find out what have i been up to? Or simply just being a busybody, chancing on my locked blog with the spare time that you have?

Haha, im done ranting. Besides, i wanna share what God has kinda implant a new insight to me.

elise

Sunday, December 20, 2009

@ 1:23 AM

Okay, truth is, i just got my pay and bonus. This is the hard part. Building fund. 1.5x of my salary. It isn't alot compared to many people in my cg. but 3225 bucks is really hard to part. I could have use the money for a wonderful holiday, buy myself the things i need, save up for rainy days, give my parents more money etc etc. But for church building fund?! Its really alot. And i can totally understand how the rich struggle with themselves. Am i making sense here?

The Widow's Offering

⁴¹Jesus sat down opposite the place where the offerings were put and watched the crowd putting their money into the temple treasury. Many rich people threw in large amounts. ⁴²But a poor widow came and put in two very small copper coins, worth only a fraction of a penny.

⁴³Calling his disciples to him, Jesus said, "I tell you the truth, this poor widow has put more into the treasury than all the others. ⁴⁴They all gave out of their wealth; but she, out of her poverty, put in everything—all she had to live on."

God kinda reminded me about this passage. When i give, im giving unto God. No matter how my family despises the thought of giving to the church, how they condemn me, its ultimately me giving to you, not them. So, even though giving may hurt, i know that wad i give, is nothing compared to what you have already blessed me. And besides, money can be earned back. That's the greatest encouragement. :)

True giving hurts.

elise

Thursday, December 17, 2009

@ 2:54 AM

2009 is coming to an end. Ive very much enjoyed the last month of it. Ive made new friends out of nowhere, got gifts which i totally didn't expect etc etc. Ive got many physical blessings, but none compared to the spiritual hunger i crave for. Birthday celebrations lasted for a few days, but it wasn't the one i longed for. Ive got to give thanks more often, i always tell myself. And to remind myself that im fortunate than most people.

Hanging out with wei and jo is fun. We tried out some Italian restaurants and made ourselves very comfortable at kith'a cafe. Well, we took some pictures, but its all inside Pixie (camera's name). Im gonna upload them, but i know its gonna take years. One day, i will do it. And hopefully its today.

Spent the remaining day with Kim and Qal. I was supp to plan, ended up in a store tt's under renovations. Took an alternative, went Clementi for a Sakura halal buffet. It was a long cold ride. Everyone's hungry and grumpy. Birthday boy Qal became weirdly quiet and we suspected that he is emo-ing again. And there he goes with his whining soon after. Food was good, and there are cakes everywhere, enjoyed ourselves totally and esp the company.

Roy is sweet. He got me three cotton roses and banana cookies for mi. Much effort made and very much appreciated. And of cos, food is in the picture too. Went for teochew porridge at 130am? And i stayed over at Priscilla's and we had a gal's talk. Which i love. :)

On 6 dec, Dav and Eilton met me. In which Daton Liz was born. I love the idea of making your own things and creating a 'life' and the much thought sincerity they put in. Although i felt alittle embarrassed, i loved the process anyway. And the reason i chose a bear out of so many things is because Daton always smile no matter wad happened. Which is wad i like abt him. :) And as if they are my cg members, they actually prayed for mi, something which i haven heard for the longest time ever. Accompanied by affirmations and of cos, awkward moments. Prayers nowadays, as you grow older, are rarer each time. Therefore, i'll grab hold of opportunities if i was ever asked.

hey dav,thanks for planning a memorable bday for mi. I know you came out of your comfort zone.

And of cos my bestie, Xiuqi and Zach from calling and smsing from various countries. It is the heart that matters.

All in all, it is about friendships and relationship that keep us going. And people are the ones who made things possible. Who gave life its meaning. Other than God of cos. We are the reason why God put in so much effort and I can see that God loves us through people.

elise