Wednesday, October 31, 2007
@ 3:10 PM
Today was my free day from sch. FYP was cancelled. Wanted to meet my people but I guess i needed some time to myself. So I did my own work and wait for time to pass till 4pm to meet THE meeting people.
I was reflecting at how my life was spent. 3/4 of my life was simply spent with this verse:
Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done
and what I had toiled to achieve,
everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind;
nothing was gained under the sun.
( ecc 2:11)
To think about it, ive not really achieved what I want. Yes, I do know I want, to expand the KOG, to do great and immeasurable things for Him. But because of this little weakness i have, I am unable to do so. Just like a toothache can hurt your whole mouth, my little weakness can stop these great things. Its just like a thorn in my flesh. And sometimes not that you dun wanna change it, your spirit is strong but your body is weak. But precisely that, you need this God thing in your life to make it work arent it? So, all the more i dun feel like it, all the more i will go for it. I WILL NOT LET MY WEAKNESSES DEFEAT ME! If i am defiant, let it be this.
I think im stagnant in my growth. DANIEL and SHARLENE help me! What i meant was, i still read the bible and all but couldn't get any new insights lately. I want new ways in which i can grow, faster. So im looking for ways for me to grow. :)) I dun feel like watching movies anymore. But i guess i cant pon it cos im the organiser? For you i will come out of my comfort zone. 
God, dun walk out of my life. Ever. You matter more than anything else in my life.
elise
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
@ 11:52 PM
WHEE! Its finally over! 1 down 3 more to go! Jia you elise!
Thank you lord for the grace and the wisdom given to me.
I wanna watch pride and prejudice + a walk to remember! Its such a long ago show but i still think its nice.
Someone pls rent the video and watch it together with me? 
Mr Darcy and Elizabeth from Pride and Prejudice.
elise
Monday, October 29, 2007
@ 12:37 AM
http://www.rbc.org/odb/odb-09-09-07.shtml
Friends may encourage me but my ultimate encourager comes from God himself. :))
Whenever we enter frightening circumstances or face furious assaults, we can say with confidence, “Lord, I’ll go anywhere with You.” —David H. Roper
Thank you lord for always being there for me in my downest moments. Help me to be able to say 'lord, i'll go anywhere with you' and to place my confidence in you. And oh, i ask for great wisdom for tmr's and tuesday's paper and i pray that you will not allow me to make any careless or silly mistakes for you know that i am a muddlehead most of the times. You're the best, for just being who you are. For not judging at my stupidity and loving me the same as everyone else. Amen.
elise
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Lousy day @ 11:52 PM
Hey all. Thanks for all the encouragements. And yes teresa, jason's the mr carrot head. :)
Been feeling really lousy today. Did maths as usual and of cos, having questions that i dunno how to do are normal. But today's questions are extremely hard that totally pull my whole morale down. And guess what, I tried so hard to understand the explanation given and was so stressed up that my exams are actually TMR and i burst into tears. I CRIED. Sad to admit but tears start pouring down like nobody's business. I hate to be seen crying and worst of all, i can cry for hours. Mind you, my tears can flood the river. Everytime this happens, I would want to run away from the current things im doing. But sometimes, people just want to find out what's wrong leaving me speechless at times. So when im crying, LEAVE ME ALONE. Well, you can offer your shoulders if you want to. That's the best you can do, or be there for me. Say nothing else.
Which reminds me of an incident. Cut the whole story short, I ran away after my mum told my teacher about my attititde in sch. Saw my friend and he gave chase. Surprisingly, I outran him and jay(run) the road and hid inside the toilet. Off the phone and cried my lungs out. elise's a crybaby. Nobody knew and i had a good exercise. oh well.
I always remember this phrase when im sad. The world's so beautiful there's nothing to be sad over. Ooh btw, no need the pitying or whatsoever. I WILL be fine. Im not so strong. Afterall, im just a human which happens to be a leader. Not that i gave up easily just that it takes awhile, just a while for me to stand up. I hope you do understand what im driving at. I guess i just need a good sleep. Goodnight.
elise
Friday, October 26, 2007
@ 12:44 AM
Wisdom doesn't necessarily come with age. Sometimes age just shows up all by itself. - Tom Wilson
It's far easier to fight for principles than to live up to them. - Adlai Stevenson
Quotes quotes quotes! i love good and understandable quotes!
Well, I cant sleep yet again. Exams are coming and im feeling all nervous and worried abt it. MATH makes me mad. And oh, the quote by Tom Wilson reminds me of Denise. She used to say people either say she's mucher older or younger. I guess the younger part's due to her size and the older side of her's due to her words of wisdom. Which i am amazed at times too. Small but powerful words.
As for the second quote, i guess we christians really have to be firm on the bible. The bible has so many things we've got to live up with yet many a times we need God's direction and strength to follow it through. We always say that we are loving people, but how many times do we judge and sterotype? That is why i agree, it's far easier to fight for principles than to live up to them.
ooh. I remembered saying to post sth abt busy-ness. Do you know in New York people are so busy they dunno what is pleasure/relaxation? Even when they are on a holiday they'll keep thinking about work, about maximising their time on pleasure. But truth is, isn't pleasure about letting your mind rest and do nothing but to have fun? Likewise, for those extreme chloeric people, even fun has an agenda. They cant stand doing nothing. So do you wait until you have a burn out then you have your sabbath day? Food for thought.
elise
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
@ 2:42 PM
All of us search for love, but some of us, after we've found it, wish we hadn't. -desperate housewives
Well, I do agree to a certain extent. Its those kind of scenerio whereby you used to like piano alot, but after ive got chance to learn and practice it, i no longer like it anymore. Something like that perhaps?
Or even worse, let's just say i used to love God and do His work, but after a long while serving, i no longer have that passion anymore. wow, that's scary. I hope it doesn't happen to me now or ever.
But I do understand the feeling of pursuing something so badly, however, after awhile, i no longer like it as much as i had before. Passion comes and go. Just like there's this period of time when the media's on swimming and other sports, i wanted to go learn and master it, but after awhile, the passion's gone. Oh well. Human's are fickle at what they want at times. Which includes me as well.
elise
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
@ 3:23 PM
Nowadays me and my friends are crazy and laughing over the momma thingy. Here are some of the examples. Have a good laugh peeps!
- Yo momma is so old tat she knows burger king when he is still a prince
- Yo momma so old I told her to act her own age, and she died.
- Yo momma so old she left her purse on Noah's Ark.
- Yo momma so stupid when she went to take the 44 bus, she took the 22 twice instead.
- Yo momma so fat that the alligator on her Lacoste shirt looks so real.
- Yo Momma so fat, her cereal bowl came with a lifeguard
- Yo Mama so fat, I gotta take three steps back just to see all of her.
- Yo Mama so old, she walked into an antique store and they kept her
- Yo Mama so stupid, she stopped at a stop sign and waited for it to say go
- Yo Mama so fat, I ran around her twice and got lost.
Haha. This is what we did when we are bored. Laughing during people's presentation. Whee. Class ending! Man, facebook is soo addictive. Leppit is cute too. Hee. Back to childhood kinda feeling. :))
elise
Monday, October 22, 2007
@ 11:43 PM
My stomach feels weird. I guess i ate too much hong zao ji. haha.
Oh, today's weather so nice to sleep. I hope i can get up tmr for sch!
Wanted to blog somthing abt busy-ness but i guess i'll do it tmr instead.
Ciao.
elise
@ 1:03 AM
Wow. Im pleased with myself. Ive managed to communicate with a guy for soo long! And oh, ive accounted to Daniel. Anyway, he's none other than Freedy! Haha. Weird combi i know. But i realise we've got alot of things similar. We are both 21 years old. So on and so forth. And our conversations are not just in bits and pieces. Its continuous and random. Of cos, we talked abt biblical stuff and learnt from one another. At least i learnt something from him.
Catched up with other people online. My night(as in when we were in the same class, he was the only one who entertained me online when ive got bad insomnia) friend: Reno.
Kim
Zihui
Daniel
Ben
Xuiqi
Denise
These are the people i know i can turn to when im bored. Haha. And, I liked the phrase above. :))
elise
Sunday, October 21, 2007
@ 11:50 PM
Whoo. Ive got 71/100 for BMC paper 2. Denise, you shld try doing. It will definitely boost your morale. I was telling Zach that it was a rather easy paper and i tried doing the rest of the schools. To my horror of horrors, i barely scraped through the paper. :C And, i gave up doing althogether for that day.
Anyway, sermon strucked me hard.
'If we truly love someone, we will treasure what the person treasures'
'how much we love God = how much we love people'
If i truly love my people, i will love everything of them. Even things im primarily not interested in. For eg: studies. I shld show interest in their welfare. I guess ive got to be selfless in this area.
God, whatever touches your heart, let it be my heartbeat too.
Oh man. my temptation just talked to me online. okay. blog blog blog. Go away. Although i dun deny missing the feeling of talking to you. argh. elise elise, be strong.
'I will not give you any temptation beyond what you can bear' -God
woah, God, your replies are instant.
elise
Saturday, October 13, 2007
@ 10:34 PM
Just finished battling with the bathroom. My wound hurts! I keep squirming around. Its not exactly a big thing but i hate the fact that im injured somewhere on my body. Its jus a cut btw. But the process of falling down is very funny.
My bro ride on the bicycle.
I sat behind him.
When he turns,
I turned towards the road as well
Fell flat on the ground.
Guan Ji said i fall until very 'jing dian' (classic)
He replicate the scene again
I just
LMAO on the floor.
haha.
If you imagine the scenario, you'll find it very silly. The cause of the fall: the punctured tyre. Haha.
Anw, took this picture from Xiang's blog. Its the one and only pic that i took that day. My curly worly hair! Kinda mutured looking tho. Hee.
elise
Friday, October 12, 2007
@ 11:22 PM
Ive got alot of things up my mind. Alot of thinking and decisions to make. But all I can think of now is:
the beginning of something is the ending of another.
A wise solution please?
elise
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
@ 11:37 AM
Something kept me thinking. I read Jiao's blog. Somehow i feel the same way too. Maybe Ive got too many to handle? Maybe everytime they come to me it seems like ive got to solve their problems. (which SOMETIMES drains me) But i know these are just excuses. When will I fully take responsibility of what Im called to do? The anwser ive always have: soon elise. And the soon never comes. Well, that's the art of procrastination. And im not proud of it.
They say anointing flows. Which proves a point. They will never grow unless i grow. So i better start doing sth in my life.
Okay. Its Oct 9 today. 20 more days to my last O level maths paper. Im having panic attack now. I woke up and didn't go school. I was practically stoning for very long. Till i realised that Ive got not much time left. I msged Daniel and told him im not going sch he said it was alright. Haha. Cos maths is more impt now. Im gonna mug the whole day today. And i pray that my attention span will be much longer today. Jia you elise!
A stoning and deep in thought tinkerbell. Well, im like her in alot of areas. Wun tel you now but you'll find it soon enough. If you know me well enough.
Preparing for maths now. Ciao.
elise
Sunday, October 7, 2007
@ 1:21 AM
My attitude sucks big time today. roars.
elise
Saturday, October 6, 2007
@ 2:00 AM
† says:
send u some nice picture
elise says:
sure
† says:
accept la
elise says:
i cant see
elise says:
lagging
† sends:
2 pics.
Open(Alt+P)
† says:
can see now
elise says:
can
† says:
accept
elise says:
thanks!
elise says:
i love this little thing
† says:
i see thaT picture untill sianz liao
† says:
got take care of urself anot
† says:
the next time i see u
† says:
i wan to see u gain weight
elise says:
haha
elise says:
hopefully.
God is indeed faithful. I was soo torn and still dwelling on the previous incident and God sent Cry (out of nowhere) to give me a pleasant surprise! Anw, the nice picture is TINKERBELL. On my msn display pic. Truth is, Ive alr got that picture but accepted it because i know the feeling of being rejected straight in the face. Im not surprised if he comes over my hse and pass mi a tinkerbell necklace! HAHA. Im just kidding. He doesn't know where I stay. And oh, his sudden qn shocked me too. We seldom meet, but he asked whether i took care of myself and funny as it seems, he wants me to gain weight! Haha. Interesting guy I would say. But he always comes in at the right time at the right place. Thanks sweetie! (though i know he dun have this link) its the thought that counts. :))
elise
@ 1:25 AM
I thought my day ended pretty well till i realised im utterly wrong.
Im so excited for once in school getting a song that i long know someone wanted badly. Thanks MY.
And so, i listened to the songs and couldn't helped but be amused how happy that someone would be if he received it -the song that he wanted. Let alone the album. Later did i know i was wrong. Yet again.
I went home and uploaded the songs to my phone and deleted some that I liked. A sacrifice, is it called? I doubt so. Not all was uploaded due to the lack of space in my phone but nevertheless, the best songs were inside. I began giving myself a pat on my shoulder. Well done elise!
On the bus to meeting them, I was actually expecting a 'OMG!' kinda response when i asked the person to close the eyes and listen to it through my phone. But all i got was: haha, ive got it yst?/long ago/sometime ago? I do not know the exact expression. My heart sank and i was disappointed at my own stupidity and initiative. And guess what? I seldom take the first step to do something for people. Shrugs. And i was trying to be nice since im always mean to you. Maybe im not cut out to be nice to you. Too bad.
I was smiling in class, knowing that he'll be glad to receive my pleasant surprise. I know the feeling of being surprised. And I love it. I thot of trying it out on people. But i guess it failed. Miserably. Oh well. I must be crazy. Like what ive posted earlier on.
Lesson learnt: great expectancy = great disappointment
elise
Friday, October 5, 2007
@ 3:56 PM
I must be crazy.
I keep laughing to myself.
All thanks to YK (classmate)
The songs are fantastic.
Instrumental songs are pleasant to my ears
Yk's earpiece are great.
I was caught daydreaming in class
I could not hear anything from the presentation
I was plainly looking at them.
With my mind wandering away.
And guess what?
Ive got the secret OST album.
Hee.
elise
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
@ 3:15 PM
Ive got a great time catching up with Teresa Png just now over msn. She's still the usual her. Here are some snippet of what we talked about. Enjoy.
Teresa! says:
god suddenly enlighten me
Teresa! says:
HAHAHA
Teresa! says:
somehow i feel its so
elise says:
really?
elise says:
wow
Teresa! says:
hahahahhaha
Teresa! says:
stupid eva, i dont believe no guys in your life now
elise says:
why not?
elise says:
am i so attractive?
elise says:
HAHA
Teresa! says:
hahahahahaha
Teresa! says:
no la
Teresa! says:
as in
Teresa! says:
the 'no la' was not to say youre not attractive
Teresa! says:
but
Teresa! says:
aiya nvm
elise says:
HAHAHA
Teresa! says:
your couse no gdlooking guys?
elise says:
sadly
Teresa! says:
hahaha thats sad
Teresa! says:
material science also no pretty girls
Teresa! says:
no motivation to go schhhh
Haha. that girl was someone that I used to hang out with when I was in Year 1 sem 2. She's very enjoyable and darn funny. Funny as it seems, i was telling denise that I miss Teresa a few days ago and she msned me today! Great catching up! And of cos, great that God FINALLY enlighten you after soo long. God has his timing huh? Haha.
I know what you did last summer. Whoo. Beware.
elise
Monday, October 1, 2007
My Time With God @ 10:49 PM
You know, today's a tiring day. Ive been so slpy yet I couldn't slp during my break times. Was kinda ranting away silently. But thank God my workload occupy me the entire afternoon and it was paid off. :))
Just came back after studying and dinner-ing with David. Had a fruitful time catching up and learning abt army stuff. Heard the food over there is getting better. Good for you Dav!
Was worshipping earlier on. Was convicted that we, youths, should win the world. If we dun reach out to the poor souls out there, who's going to? If people's gonna think that someone else will do it,I ensure you, that day will nv come and the KOG will not advance and Jesus will not come back. So if nobody's gonna do it, I am. My people, are you for it? To change the world for youths? I will move on with the movers and for those who lags behind, I hope you will wake up your idea.
Sometimes i think that the older generation are more chiong than the new generation. I know its my responsibility to change the culture, I dunno the methods, i dunno what words to use. All I know is I want. Teach me how lord.
God let us be, a generation that seeks your face.
Give us clean hands, give us pure hearts
let us not give our souls to another.
We ask for the schools to be won over soon.
All this i pray, in your name.
Amen.
elise
