Tuesday, August 21, 2007
@ 2:17 PM
Class ended early today! PLaying bball with prissy,George and perhaps Avan? Suresh's explaining about mean filtering. what left, what right. Dunno what's he's taking about. Something like photoshop? What pixels and all. Oh well. Last lesson of SIGNAL PROCESSING! Whoohoo! :))
N man! Wrong attire again. A dress that ABIT transparent. Im SO insecure. Though I did wear sleeveless and FYP(according to prissy, which was supp to be FBTs) inside. :c Din dare to walk around too often. Extreme comments for the dress.
Marlene: woah. nice eh. Where you bought it?
Bennett: Looks like pajamas.
George: abit transparent.
Prissy: Okay lar. :D
HAHA. AND! I just had period. :(
FYP meeting.
tmr see you at 930am at the library tmr.
Regards,
Irwan Kassim
:CC
elise
Friday, August 17, 2007
@ 12:31 PM
These few days haven been seeping well. Had violent nightmares. To think about it gives me the creeps. My brother was saying: no wonder you keep kicking me, one day i'll be killed by you. haha. I woke up with slight bruises and I guess its those i kicked against the walls.
Anw, been thinking about certain things.
1) what if something rules over the passion of serving in a ministry?
2) the world of deceits
3) the change of my shepherd
Isn't it scary if one day you choose to leave God because you choose bgr over God or you cant let go of sth that u hold dearly to. Or worse still, best of both worlds. Well, we all know that there's no such things as best of both worlds if we want to focus on one thing. Either God, or man. I used to think that I can handle both balancely, till recently i realised that you will fall eventually if you hold on too tightly to something that is not of God. And mind you, even godly man aren't perfect.
Deceits. Well, this hurts the most. Not experiencially. But I keep hearing people discussing about it. Your close friend don't share with you what's happening in their lives. You always thought that its all well but there's something hiding behind our backs. Certain things you found out and wanted to hear it from the person yet he/she twist and turn the story. Isn't it scary to have this kind of friend? When you thought that the person already let go of something but failed to realise that he didn't all these while? And making use of you as if you were the other person? Someone else's face and your body. Darn. What stupidity. Sometimes you just want the truth, yet the person is keeping mum about things. Sigh.
yay. On a happier note, im changing shepherd. New start, new direction. I felt like I haven been shepherded for a thousand years and here I am, with a new shepherd. I hope to take intiative tho. :)
Alright, having UT later. Gonna ciao to study for it. Bye.
elise
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
@ 12:04 AM
I finally know what's wrong after much thinking on the bus.
JOY. Im lack of joy. May it be serving in ministry or in school. Alot of things happened. Negative ones of cos. But im not going to let them affect me, after all, who are they to control my emotions? elise is a strong girl. Through thick and thin, I'll go through with you.
Tmr's FYP presentation. I'll be lying if im not nervous. I just hope that I will not be tongue-tied and everything will go on smoothly. Of cos, relying on my supernatural God to help. Im kind of tired physically but still doing on my fyp last touch up before the battle field. Jia you elise! God will honour you for your hardwork.
Remember, all things doesn't always go your way. Who are you trying to kid?
elise
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Reflections @ 10:49 PM
As the title itself says, reflections.
well, I think im rather mean this few days. maybe its pms, maybe im just mean. But i repent. To whoever i 'swaned', im sorry. Though you may not know, but i think through it and thought it was mean if it was done on me.
I always thought it was fun. Later did I realise that I had fun at the expense of others. And mind you, some is really mean.
Through this reflections, I realised how unbiblical i can be, how childish i can behave. So God, help me to be more sensitive to your word. Help me to be secure in your love.
Ive not been sleeping well, so help me pray that i can sleep peacefully. thanks.
things to grow in: humilty, grace.
if we stop growing, we'll never be a better person.
elise
Monday, August 6, 2007
Wrong set of clothes @ 12:10 PM
orh orh.
Wrong Shirt.
=x
elise
