Tuesday, March 27, 2007
@ 2:14 PM
Busy busy busy.
I finally had time to blog. :) I miss working at coffee bean's. The people and the environment. So glad that im working tmr. :) Cant wait to go sch too! To unite with my friends and to share wad we did during the LONG holidays. FYP's meet on mon at starbucks! So im gonna do research real soon abt ECG and EMG. Dunno wad's tt tho. But yea. lotsa things to do. I need to persist on! Persistance is the key right now. :)
elise
Saturday, March 17, 2007
@ 12:41 PM
I think Ive grown. Through yst's bowling session with my colleagues/friends. I dun really how to play. But ive decided to try since my brother has alr keyed in my name in the game. It was a tough battle, everybody was scoring, i got 0 striaght for the 2 times out of 10. I was discouraged and of cos, wanted to give up. Was having my usual negative speech and all.( i hate losing). But my friends never gave up on me. They keep encouraging me, teaching me how to go about playing it. Though i was the last, but i know i have slight improvement which makes me real happy. But if i keep comparing with my bro, he's far too good for me. And by doing that, it doesn't do me any good. So i just did my best and will keep learning from there.
Lesson learnt: Never give up until the last stage. Many a times, i gave up without seeing the ending point. I complain when i dun do well. I feel discouraged when things dun go my way. But wad's the point? I learnt to encourage myself, not to give up, not to give negative speech and not to express my emotions out in a negative way. Because when i do all these, i know that there is still hope and it will strive me on to do greater things. Its just like, no point crying over spilled milk, but how do you pick up yourself and go on from there that matters.
Heard a surprising news today. My first response was not to doubt, but to care. I looked up to God and my heart was comforted. I wasn't angry but i was worried. So i told God tt she's safe in your hands. My worries were gone. In this aspect, i think i've grown.(Not saying in an egoistic manner) Ive learnt to see things in another perspective. Instead of panicking wad's gonna happen, i look to God and think in a logical way. Oh well, problems are there so that we can grow isn't it? So i guess ive got to rely on God than to do life without Him. So, here i am, test me.
A rock that cannot be shaken.
elise
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
@ 12:17 AM
"Success is not far, its how u gonna go for it." -Elise Chan
Hmm. Learnt alot of things recently. I learnt tt you gotta believe in yourself in order to do something great in life. It can be something unbelievable, but if you set your heart to do it, impossible is nothing. Let's just say your childhood's dream to become a millionaire. It may seem impossible for now, but if u think logically, u work hard, take risks and invest in the right things, you can actually do it. But of cos, you need to believe that you can do it. Even if you have a tinge of unbelief, you are sure to fail. Nobody plan to fail, but they fail to plan. So plan your days ahead and be assured that you can go far.
God,
Once again i thank God for everything u have blessed me with. I wouldn't want to claim credit from u, but what you have brought mi has benefited me alot. Ive learnt, experienced and there will b more to come. I look forward to spending my life with you and in this whole scheme that you have brought mi to, again and again. I dunno your plans for me as yet, but help mi to be humble to learn and not to be materalistic after ive achieved what i wanted. Keep my heart in check and to give credit ALL to you. Amen.
elise
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Long post @ 11:14 PM
Its sat. And once again i learnt something new. From yesterday's prayer meet, let go of your past and strain forward. If i keep holding on to my past, i'll not just be stagnant, i'll never grow as a person, let alone spiritually. So its up to me whether i wanna let go, dwell on my past or move forward. The decision is mine. It just like whether i wanna grow, be the old me or be satisfied at where i am today. But which, of cos, i wanna grow as a person and spiritually. :) Guess its hard, but i know i can do it eventually. yeah. one thumb up for myself! heh.
What i learnt in service: Something that struck me. I am supposed to be a powerful christian, but sometimes i dun feel so due to circumstances. When i look at my life, sometimes i dun feel powerful at all. Question is: Am i that powerful after all? hmm. God has his ways, and his ways are higher than my ways.
Sometimes we ask ourselves: Are we for God or against God? When we disobey, it seems like we are against God, but on the other hand, isn't it scary to be against Him? Your life is endangered any moment. I'll rather be for Him. Which means, to obey.
In Seed Meet: It dawned upon me that when i served hard, there are bound to have discouragements, but dun let them affect you. Guess why my group is kinda stagnant because of the past discouragements that held me of my potential growth. Everything lies with the leader. So when i stop caring, the group stops growing. I dun want that to happen. It too selfish of me. That why when Daniel shared abt me, i was kinda angry at myself. Why am i so weak? Im supp to be strong. Crying is a weakness. I dun cry. But on the other hand, i'll be emotionless if i dun cry for my ppl when they are not doing well, when they did something really wrong, when the grp never grow, when we celebrate each other's unique-ness etc. When my ppl are successful, i'll cry for them, when they are growing, i'l cry. Not in a sadistic manner, but i really feel happy for them. Till words cant describe. People matters to me. Guess i love them so much that i dun allow mistakes to happen in their lives that will in turn ruin their lives for their own good. But which leader dun do that? Oh well.
Dear God,
I wanna be a great leader that understand the welfare of my ppl, to love them unconditionally, to believe in them no matter what happens and to be with them when bad situations occur. I wanna be the best shepherd i can be to my ppl. To listen, to sympathise, to love and to care. To teach them to the best i can and to impart whatever i know to them. Help me to grow so that they can grow. Let your anointing be upon me and your favour to be upon central C. Let us be the gals that lead the way and to show others that you can use simple gals like us to win the world for you. Let us b a great testimony to many and a salt and light to the world. Widen our vision and help us grow like never before in quality and quantity. Give us your conviction so as to extend the KOG. We wanna do your work with great joy. Amen.
Yeah. Felt so peaceful after praying. So refreshed. Im actually phyically tired and im gonna get some sleep. Tmr's water baptism and im gonna write cards for my ppl now. gdnite!
elise
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
@ 10:12 AM
God, I pray for my ppl that u'll lead them the way. I dunno wad u have for them, but i do know u'll have the best. Circumstances doesn't seem the best tho, but we'll still trust in you. Help my ppl to understand that whateva situation they are in, give thanks. It's hard we know, but that's when we learn to trust. To learn to let go and let you lead us instead. Man, i really know how they feel, but i dun want them to react the way i did. Help them to be strong and walk well with you. Amen.
Ooh. Really felt very burdened for them now. Thank God there's such things called prayers. upholding everything to God. There's nothing i can do. If its your will, let it be done.
elise
Monday, March 5, 2007
@ 11:17 PM
Hmm. Dunno wad to post. But i asked weii this question today.
What do you think you can learn from me?
She din give me a definite answer tho. She was very tired by the time i asked her out. So what do u think u can learn from me? Please give me a sound answer.
Have nothing on on thurs and fri morning. What can I do? Man, Ive been wasting too much time. :((
God, help me to utilise my time well. May it be spending time with people, reading, going for cgs etc. Just let me do sth. I know my carnal nature is to go out with frens, but i wanna do sth beyond that. I wanna grow soo much more in this yr and of cos, all these takes discipline. So help me to have discipline to do spiritual work and to enjoy every single moment with you. I don't want to take you for granted and leave you behind. But to share my deepest darkest secrets with you. I give thanks in advance. Amen!
O.o I learnt to give thanks. When i give thanks, I'll complain lesser, I'll appreciate God more and to realise that i do have more than enough. Esp in terms of food. Thank u God once again.
Anyway, food for thought.
Widen your vision, narrow your focus.
Deepen your conviction, heighten your commitment.
What do you think of this phrase? A ULM ponder.
elise
Sunday, March 4, 2007
DEPRIVED @ 12:35 AM
Oh man. Im hungry. And im deprived of gassy drinks. :(( Im BANNED from it. Thanks to Zach and Joanne. If only he hasn't convinced her. I saw magi mee. Im soo tempted to eat it. But im BANNED from it too. Its worst than fasting. Why am i banned?? Cos of health purposes. Sigh. Hmm. Running away from temptation when temptation is just SOO near me. Im drinking water instead. How sad? Oh well, I shouldn't complain anymore. Eat chocolate then.
elise
@ 12:03 AM
Back to blogging. Was really busy, modem was confiscated by mum and alot of drama rama things happened. Anw, I jus rebuked someone today. Kinda scared but i know i must do it. For the sake of the person. Knowing me, i wouldn't do this kind of thing. So, its my first time. Oh well. Was rather firm abt wad i said. I said:
'Take it or wait till God do something nasty in your life in order for you to learn how to submit.'
Quite firm huh.
Anw, read weii's blog today. She's a very interesting person. From her thought process, can tell that she's not someone that's very predictable yet one who is wise. Hmm. beginning to know her more and more. But i guess time gonna stop us soon. Soon and very soon. Guess im gonna miss her. :((
Learnt something about encouragement.
When a person feels encouraged, he can face the impossible and overcome incredible adversity.
And for most people, its not what they are that holds them back, its what they think they're not.
So if u can encourage more, encourage more. If you have nothing better to say/discouraging speech, don't say just to spoil the relationship.
I will if you force me to.
elise
