GOD!! I screwed up worship today! WHY ISIT SO? WHY AM I SO NERVOUS WHEN I KNOW I CAN DO MUCH MUCH BETTER?! I missed the chorus! I was stunned at my own work. I was very much affected by the incident. Worse of all, I din lead people to you! They were lost, Pris got to come in and help, I couldn't catch the tune of the guitar, I felt so... helpless. What a horrible worship experience. Sorry God, i din do my best. I screwed up. Big time.
elise
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
@ 1:34 PM
Dear God,
Sabbath was good. I came upon the song,
Lost and insecure You found me, you found me Lyin' on the floor Surrounded, surrounded Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you? Just a little late You found me, you found me
Reminded me of times i failed maths over and over again. When i was lying on the floor, crying, asking where were you? But God, you are never too late, you found me yet again. After a long long struggle. But its never too late.
I came across a quote:
"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else." -C. S. Lewis It is so true.. There are so many things i can give praise for. there is no reason why i should complain. So God, continue to be patient with me as i discover more of you.
elise
Friday, July 24, 2009
@ 12:10 PM
Dear God, It was an eventful week for me Lord, with 2 of my collegues down with suspected H1N1, i have much work to do. I pray that you'll take away their perpetually high fever, running nose and irritable itchy throat and be well again to be effective in things they want to do. Help them gain back their energy and may your power be on them so that they know tt someone prayed for them.
Cg was great, worship touched me deeply. I learnt to focus on you rather than the guitar playing, tho it was not the best, but I know you were in the midst of us, leading us through your spirit. It was really really ministering for me. I pray that i'll always have that in my personal worship and to experience you so tangibly everytime. But God, if you may, i pray that you, somehow or another, bless me with a guitar. haha.
Shepherding was good too. I shared to pris what i thot i would never figure how to put into words. But God kinda worked in our relationship and we opened our hearts. I shared with her my struggles with complaining and how i would demonstrate my anger and frustration. That was then i realised that we had the same problem! haha. No wonder you made her my shepherd to identify with me. hee. But we talked it out and kinda solve the problem. To stop complaining, give thanks more. Thanks to Ong who taught me that when i was super grumpy. You sent people from everywhere just to help me with this problem. haha.
You indeed go all out for people! Im so gonna learn from you, esp when days i dun feel like it.
Before i end, i pray that you'll be with mi throughout today and give me courage to invite teng, Roy and zhi xiang to church this sunday! Oh yea, i pray for rain this sun morning so tt zhi xiang's soccer would be cancelled and he is able to come for church. make it work lord. Haha.
elise
Thursday, July 2, 2009
@ 12:02 AM
Dear God,
The granny fell and hit her head. 5cm long and 2cm deep. When i saw her state, my heart goes all out for her. On the other hand, my hands cant stop trembling! It was so much blood! I basically prayed tt you'll will heal her and take away the pain. She was at a lost when she was wheeled into our clinic. God, i pray tt she's okay by now.
It was a busy day at the clinic, the phone cant stop ringing, the patients roam in and out and the granny broke her head. Everyone seemed to be sick. I pray that you'll heal the sick, Roy and Pris, who is going to fall sick and one had a splitting headache. Hope that they'll know tt someone prayed for them tt's why they had a speedy recovery!
Im going to sleep now God, help me to pull through tmr with a positive attitude! Cant wait for fri's prayer meet to experience you in a deeper and undisturbed manner!
