It's ELISE!

Saturday, December 22, 2007

@ 2:06 AM

While we were all rushing cards and all, a fire broke out opposite my house. :(
Explosions were heard and we could all do nothing except to watch and pray. I think its due to the power supply. Shrugs.
I pray that the people in there are fine. At least let them be christians.
Fire engines are still here tho. At 2:09am.
I thank God that im still safe and sound eating noodles at this late hour.
Thanks to my sis once again. :)

AND, not to forget, we break our goal of 35! We had 43! Now let's see more converts later on! Afterall, what is christmas without christ?

Are you ready for the the service and sentosa thingy??

elise

Friday, December 21, 2007

@ 12:44 AM

This is my pillars. A bunch of crazy people. Let me introduce you. left to right. Yk, elise, weiting, meirong and Angela! It was taken today. And we had great fun knowing one another's secrets and laughing at one another's silly moments.

Okay. this is Yk. Abit blur but yea, had quite a good conversation with him today. Breakthrough for today. Shall see for other days! :)) Im really happy for this little breakthrough tho.

Anyway, Central B's gonna have more CL gathering. We got to know one another and bond with the group. It a good kick start for today. Out to hunt out for more eating places! :D btw, opp central's bah kut teh is nice! Go try it people! 4 thumbs up!

elise

Thursday, December 20, 2007

@ 2:21 PM

Okay. Im gonna be really random today. So take caution in reading it.

First realisation ive had. Im too self-centered. If you noticed, all my blog posts revolves around I, me, myself. Ive not talked about my people for the longest time ever.
God, help me regain back my passion once again.

Ive having nightmares everynight. Dreams of group not growing, people backsliding, someone chasing me, wanting something really badly from me(which i dunno wad) bad quarrels often ending up in me screaming in my dreams, my past and some demons thingy. More often waking up in shock. I think im in emotional distress. Shrugs.
God, help me to be aware of my own emotions.

Selective sharing. Recently i learnt to select my sharings. I shared to Sharlene certain struggles i faced recently and i realised tt i keep talking abt this particular person. And sharlene was saying: out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks. I guessed its true. i enjoyed the presence so much. I know who not to share my ministry woes to, who not to share abt my families thingy, who not to share my relationship issues etc. But i know who i can share freely too. :)
God, help me to be balanced in this area.

Recently, ive made this person really upset. To a point tt we don't communicate anymore. I tried to call, but to no avail. i initiated a meet up but no replies. Im sick of being pro-active but yea. im sorry. I know one day, you'll come back to me. It takes time to heal, isn't it?
God, help me to be humble to admit my mistakes.

Ive got a girlfriend. haha. odd days, she'll be my boyfriend. even days im the guy. haha. sounds fun. But tt's how i relate to my sheep. And we are close enough to share things. Or maybe i think it this way. Not sure abt her tho. :) And mind you, she's really demanding. Wait till the odd days! HAHA.
God, thank you for this friendship.

Ive always give people the wrong impression. You know sometimes i can be quite blunt or too open. But im like that. If you are uncomfortable, do tell me k? I dun want any miscommunication. I dun mind you being open. Just don't do anything funny like taking of your pants or whatsoever, i'll be stunned. Haha. Not tt they never do before, but pls respect us girls. Or at least tell us before hand.
God, help me to be senstive to people around me.

I love my little private world of mine. So if i shared you some part of it, be grateful. You know sometimes i will stammer and blush when im very nervous abt sharing certain issues. Esp when you gaze into my eyes. I will tend to look away. BUT, im fine with it now. Thanks to you.
God, help me to relate well with others.

Lastly, cgo8! ive got 6 more schools to complete. Ive got wineskin, all i need is people strolling in. Retain them and disciple them well. Jia you people! Im going cg later. For the first time this year. I know im gonna enjoy it and hopefully make impact!
God, help me to be fruitful!

expect the unexpected and you'll be surprised.
man. i miss you so much.

elise

Monday, December 17, 2007

RUNAWAY - Avril Lavigne @ 3:36 PM

RUNAWAY-Avril Lavigne

Got up on the wrong side of life today
Crash the car and I'm gonna be really late
My phone doesn't work cus it's out of range
Looks like it's just one of those kind of days
You can't kick me down
I'm already on the ground
No you can't, but you couldn't catch me anyhow
Blue skies, but the sun isn't coming out, no
Today is like I'm under a heavy cloud
And I feel so alive
I can't help myself
Don't you realize

[Chorus]
I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away
So how I'm doing, if you're wondering
I'm in a fight with the world but I'm winning
Stay there, come closer it's at your own risk
Yeah you know how it is life can be a ____

Im doing EMG yet again and reading blogs and thought tt some poeple's blog, when you entered it, its like a church. Everything is about God and ministry and stuff. No personal life, no learnings about life no testimonies or whatsoever. Abit like no life huh? No offence but u get my drift. On the other hand, i thought maybe its just a me thing tt im NOT tt spiritual which often make me struggle whether to or not to declare my blog to others. Im being human yet maybe too human tt people will be stumbled. So im a confused kid now. to or not to?

Runaway to my own world of quietness. To solitude. :)

elise

@ 12:17 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZACHARY YOUNG DAN FENG!

okay. well, today's your birthday. I shall be the first to affirm you. haha. We've been friends for pretty long. Serving alongside with Daniel and Ethan. Got to know you slightly more in the recent year and to learn from you over dinner tables or supper tables. Sometimes knowing someone close may not be a good thing. Precisely ive known you for so long, im lost for words. And this might not be the best affirmation i will give. That's a disclaimer btw. But ive really learnt much frm you, be it whether i verbalised it or not, show it or not but it just keep me thinking most of the time though at times i appear to be disinterested about the things u discussed with daniel, but deep down im learning from your mistakes and thinking how to apply in my own unit. You've taught me certain things about life. Correcting me at times. Rebuke me when neccessary and i guess you are one tt will dare to approach me, telling me tt im wrong and to change without knowing the consequences of doing tt. I remembered you saying tt im the most prideful woman ive ever seen on earth, and i do not disagree. But im making the effort to change and be humble. After stating all these, im trying to say tt u do have an impact in my life, someone who is able to influence me in many areas and just to tell you this, i appreciate you and and to be your friend, supporting you and encouraging you when you need it. If there is ever a chance, i would want to be under you, learning frm your leadership.
and not to forget, thanks for tolerating my quietness at times, my stares when im angry and the many times when i refused to say im sorry. happy 20th birthday.

agape,
elise.

elise

Sunday, December 16, 2007

@ 10:54 PM

Im vexed. About alot of things. I think and I thought tt it is not right to feel this way. Yet i feel this way. Do you feel me? Not trying to emo or whatsoever. No all things can be said out loud.

Anyway, i had a bad dream yesterday which totally freaked me out. I woke up at 4 and wanted to msg everyone i had a really bad dream. I was in cold sweat and tears. I dreamt tt my group doesn't want to grow, tt they want things their own way. Ive got no support frm the CLs and im left standing alone. Scary. After watching warlords, I thought tt the support coming frm the ground is so impt to win the battle. Do i even have ALL the support? Shrugs. I couldn't sleep and was out of focus the whole day.

Celebrated Angela's birthday. It was the sweetest thing our cg has done so far. We went ben & jerry in the early afternoon. Zach and SY wrote a song for her. I could tell she was very touched and the song was about her. And the rest as usual. =) I couldn't help but feel abit ... jealous. sigh. elise, why are you so carnal? And i dun like it when ppl know wad im feeling. Maybe its an ego thing bah. The thing is, how can the church's celebration beat the ones outside church?! Frankly speaking, i dun like spending it with my ULM. Not becos it sucks or anything, but yea, maybe cos of the disappointment i face every year? shrugs.
Well, high expectation = high disappointment. Get use to life elise. Not everything will go your way.

Well, i remembered one of my best birthday celebration i had with my people.
One that they came my house at midnight and cooked things for me! I was extremely touched and thank God for their efforts. And the affirmation was really heartwarming and sweet. Thanks to the CC gals. My pillars. I will never forget that incident.

With my friends. Drove me to mount faber park blind-folded me and piggybacked me to this place and when i opened my eyes, i saw the beautiful stars above me. I was totally awed and teared. I spent the whole night there till i fall aslp and was sent back home safe and sound.
Wonderful friends ive got. Irreplaceable. Thank God for u.

What i learnt during camp: Even if i gain the whole world, i will eventually forfeit my soul. So i serve to my best. God, my lst love.

God, help me not to get discouraged over things i do not have control. I will do to my best and help me to be secure in leading the grp and knowing that im leading them to you. Grow the grp despite cicumstances and help bond the unit tgt. you know ive done my best and teach me to understand your heart cry for the people under my care. I know you will always be behind me being my cheerleader and the shoulder you gave during my down times. Thank you for just being there. there's no replacing of you. No one.

elise

Friday, December 14, 2007

@ 3:13 PM

SAVE ME!!
Im dying in class. With the wet weather and the noise outside class.
Im falling asleep REAL soon. :(

jiu ming. pang wo pay attention in class he make wo de class more huo li. mei ge ren dou yao si le. gan xie zhu. ah men. haha.

Update my blog abt camp when im more awake.
Ciaoz.

elise

Thursday, December 13, 2007

PICTURES! @ 3:03 PM

I guess these teach us certain stuff. And to do things to our very best.Reminds me of Nike's slogan.

JUST DO IT. anyway.

Don't stop building what you are building. You never know who you are building or what you can achieve.

Build the youth of today, win the world tomorrow. That's my conviction.

10151035! -My goal for Central B. We will get there!End Dec 2007.

elise

Friday, December 7, 2007

@ 1:12 PM

“There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won’t anymore and who always will. So don’t worry about people from your past, there’s a reason why they didn’t make it to your future.”

very true isn't it?
It will soon come to an end after my tertiary and the end of youth ministry. :(

elise

A memorable week. @ 12:51 AM

I was really busy this week. With watching movies continuously to eating like nobody's business. HAHA. Tell you what i eat k. Fish n Co on monday, tues i forgot. Wed, some jap resturant with the DMM, some buffet thingy with my ppl and tmr im not sure wad yet. Cos dewen's treating! hahah!

I would say i had great time of knowing myself abit more through the affirmation and im really glad tt i impacted lives which i din even realised. I thank God for using me unknowingly and i get to know my strengths! Which i have been asking myself for quite awhile now.

Anyway, Im really grateful for those who remembered and called. I was extremely touched when XIUQI called from taiwan and wished me happy bday. I was soo shocked eh. AND it was a pleasant surprise. NOT anyone could surprise me tho. And xiuqi is one of the few. =)

As for daniel's dmm, they blindfold me and i walked to BORDERS building and walked right into a filming! And someone was like hey, be careful, there's someone near you. HAHA. I was scared and embarrassed. =l It was a jap restaurant. Good ambience and interesting desserts. Ate all the weird looking stuff. Haha. Too bad there's no pictures. :( they gave a white ribboned pair of pumps. AND oh! Winnie's so sweet! She was away to HK and she sent this letter with this handmade necklace with TINKERBELL with it. I was totally amazed at her creativity and craftmanship! She totally won my heart! THANK YOU WINNIE! :D

My dmm. Yiyou conned me to eat with her. HAHA. Mind you, she sure can eat tons of food. Had buffet near Bugis area and we had great fun laughing at one another. With yk as the meatball eater, Mei Rong as the mushroom eater, hannah's the egg, weiting's the noodles, angela gave up halfway yiyou's the prawn and im the meat eater! haha. YK can really finish the balls! He eats non stop! After that, yiyou brought us to this famous dessert stall and we settle there. OOH! they made a video for me too. Very sweet and efficient. Yiyou only spent 2 hours making it. AMAZING! They gave me a bible study book! :D So tt i can lead them better! HAHA.

joke:
guy 1: oh my god!
guy 2: yes my son?
HAHA. tt's wad i remembered the most other than the heartfelt affirmation.

ooh! not to forget, thanks for the pressies! i love the ZARA jacket! 3more to go! =) I will get them myself. HAHA.

elise

Monday, December 3, 2007

@ 3:19 PM

Yst was a fun day where mi, Teresa and Roy went out to eat at Fish n Co. Nice catching up and great chat! Here's our msn conversation in sch. It was an impromptu decision.

Teresa! says:
if not it'll be other days lor
Teresa! says:
or you wanna eat super fast on wed
elise says:
nah
elise says:
i dun wanna choke and die on my bday
elise says:
haha
Teresa! says:
HAHAHAHAHA!
Roy says:
touch wood !
elise says:
hahah
Roy says:
dying by suffocation is the worst
Teresa! says:
oh
Teresa! says:
by drowning
Teresa! says:
poor dragon boater
elise says:
yea lor
elise says:
=l
Roy says:
"/
elise says:
eh
elise says:
so how?
elise says:
today ah?
Teresa! says:
roy
Teresa! says:
free today?
Teresa! says:
got $$ not?
Teresa! says:
LOL
Roy says:
o_o
elise says:
hahaha
elise says:
ive got 20 only
elise says:
enuf?
Teresa! says:
aiyo
Teresa! says:
enough la
elise says:
cos i din bring my atm
elise says:
=l
Teresa! says:
you bday girl
Roy says:
haha bday threat
Teresa! says:
shldnt be paying in the first place
Teresa! says:
=)
Teresa! says:
threat or treat?
Roy says:
is treat
Teresa! says:
wah
Teresa! says:
scare the shit outta me!
Teresa! says:
lol
elise says:
hahaha
elise says:
threat!
Teresa! says:
so how
Teresa! says:
today?
Teresa! says:
wah, damn impromptu
Roy says:
hm
Teresa! says:
LOL
elise says:
after ur ut?
Roy says:
glass house
Roy says:
?
Roy says:
or..
Roy says:
cwp ?!
Teresa! says:
cwp dont have!!
elise says:
glass hse!
Teresa! says:
amk hub then got
Roy says:
ook
Teresa! says:
glass house la
Teresa! says:
more romantic
Teresa! says:
HEHEHEHE
Roy says:
pork mall
Roy says:
pARK mall
elise says:
HAHA
Teresa! says:
park mall la!!
Teresa! says:
pork mall!!
Teresa! says:
hahahahahahaha!!!
elise says:
omg!
Teresa! says:
hahaha
Roy says:
ha ha
elise says:
im stil laughing over pork mall
Roy says:
halal k
elise says:
HAHA
Teresa! says:
hahahahah
This msn conversation duper funny! I LMAO in class yet again and was reminded by the carrot head. Once again, its roy after all. haha. And we miss your sandwiches! :D

elise