Tuesday, February 17, 2009
@ 3:45 AM
Im having some serious insomnia again. Weird thoughts flood every now and then, things that doesn't concern me pop out of no where. Making me skeptical and worried for no apparent reason. I know these sounds dumb, but things of the world suddenly overwhelm me, leaving me stoned and wondering about life.
After blog hopping, i reckoned that some blogs give you the positive feel and some don't. Some hide their feelings and some, concerned of their own spiritual life and blogged about their empty lifestyle. As for me, since im already locking it, i guess i can be honest. I like sharing about my life and hope that people will learn from my mistakes and move on, on the other hand, i dun wanna stumble people too. Caught in the middle i guess. I wouldn't say im that spiritual but i hope im moving towards it each time.
A minute ago, i was thinking about looking good, and God straight away enlightened me with the verse, seek first his kingdom and everything will be given to you as well. I always thank God that everytime i feel like sinning, or tempted, God always pop some verse in me. So, i guess i can never run away from him. Life w/o Him may be good, but its not eternal. Remember elise, choose the right thing.
What do you find in a friend?
Availability and a good listener make good friends with me. You may not be very good with words, as long as you listen to me, make time for me, we can be really good friends. I may appear strong but i guess deep down, im vulnerable in certain ways. Im fearful in friendships. I dunno who to trust, who will accept me, who will leak out my secrets, who is always there when i needed them and who would listen. I never share all to one friend. Cos, im insecure. That's it.
I don't enjoy friends who have alot of close friends. Because, they will treat you like any other friends. If you get what i mean.
elise
