Friday, February 20, 2009
@ 3:13 PM
Dear God,
I led worship yesterday during cg. I thought i would faint in fear leading people who are older, into your presence. But i guess it was refreshing for me and i sang my heart out despite the crowd. I overcame my fear of failure. Thank God for it. Holy com was rather interesting as well, we were told to relate not only to you but to the cg as well. Hendra suggested we pray OR affirm the one next to us. And so, i prayed for him. And to my surprise, he affirmed me for my willingness. To lead worship. I know im unwilling and fearful of the outcome but God, you made it happened and i guess people are ministered. And thats the whole point of worship.
For the first time in cg, i felt your presence in the group, the holiness, the godly things we said, the things we prayed. It was as if im in youth again. No more barriers. I pray that this will not just be within the 4 walls. :)
Before i forget, always remind me about the things i wrote in that paper. To accept, to apreciate and to add on to people. I wanna do it to Jinqi and i hope you can make it happen, clear away the prejudice and make me comfortable with her. Im going out with her, make it a good one where we can share life openly. I trust and commit this blooming friendship to you.
elise
