Today was my free day from sch. FYP was cancelled. Wanted to meet my people but I guess i needed some time to myself. So I did my own work and wait for time to pass till 4pm to meet THE meeting people.
I was reflecting at how my life was spent. 3/4 of my life was simply spent with this verse:
Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done
and what I had toiled to achieve,
everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind;
nothing was gained under the sun.
( ecc 2:11)
To think about it, ive not really achieved what I want. Yes, I do know I want, to expand the KOG, to do great and immeasurable things for Him. But because of this little weakness i have, I am unable to do so. Just like a toothache can hurt your whole mouth, my little weakness can stop these great things. Its just like a thorn in my flesh. And sometimes not that you dun wanna change it, your spirit is strong but your body is weak. But precisely that, you need this God thing in your life to make it work arent it? So, all the more i dun feel like it, all the more i will go for it. I WILL NOT LET MY WEAKNESSES DEFEAT ME! If i am defiant, let it be this.
I think im stagnant in my growth. DANIEL and SHARLENE help me! What i meant was, i still read the bible and all but couldn't get any new insights lately. I want new ways in which i can grow, faster. So im looking for ways for me to grow. :)) I dun feel like watching movies anymore. But i guess i cant pon it cos im the organiser? For you i will come out of my comfort zone. 
God, dun walk out of my life. Ever. You matter more than anything else in my life.
