Some people view dads as role models, some view them as a listening ear, some wants to be a daddy's girl, some otherwise.
I want my dad to to comfort me when im sad, to hold me when i cry, to laugh with me when im happy to scold me when im naughty to say bedtime stories when im bored to stroke my hair when im asleep.
I long to be a daddy's girl like everyone else. But sadly, my dad's screwed.
And, i miss the good old days. Bring it back to me If only.
elise
Saturday, July 28, 2007
@ 1:11 AM
Hello. Im supposed to do some codings now but my mind's a blank. I was distracted for one whole week. Skipped school twice in a row. Unable to know the reason why. Blogs nowadays are talking about love, about sweet boyfriends and girlfriends they have. Cant help but feeling envious that such things could actually happen in reality. I know i could have gotten into a serious one. But nah, there's still much for me to learn. :) (wait for God's best?)
Anyway, on a brighter note, STC hit 21! Their end July goal. Pioneers was slightly higher, with 24 altogether. So all in all, Central B broke 35! yay. :DD
To celebrate, we have our very own first Central B BBQ! It's gonna be exciting, with new faces, interaction with the unit itself and of cos not to forget, taking spastic pictures! I can only imagine how great its gonna be.. :)
And oh, had a fruitful time with Raph the other day. My one day boyfriend. HAHA. We broke up thereafter. And i realised how much I ACTUALLY missed the old DMM. Ive learnt to treasure people much more.
Gtg. More codes coming up.. elise staring into the blank lappy..
elise
Monday, July 23, 2007
What is life? @ 12:00 PM
What is the purpose of life? Have you ever thought about it? I read about it and even when you have everything you ever wanted, it is not enough. You still attempt suicide, you wanna die. So, what is the reason for living? Few truths that might knock some sense.
1) Life is a series of problems: Either you are in one now, you're just coming out of one, or you're getting ready to go into another one.
2) We can be reasonably happy here on earth, but that's not the goal of life. The goal is to grow in character, in Christ likeness.
3) No matter how good things are in your life, there is always something bad that needs to be worked on. And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is always something good you can thank God for.
4) You can focus on your purposes, or you can focus on your problems. If you focus on your problems, you're going into self-centeredness.
5) One of the easiest ways to get rid of pain is to get your focus off yourself and onto God and others.
6) Learn to deal with both the good and the bad of life.
There are more things out there. But deal with these first, cos even with this, you might not even overcome it. But fear not, cos we can, for we have one that is far greater than us.
elise
Thursday, July 12, 2007
@ 1:44 PM
Its soo saddening how one can change to another you don't even recognise. Sometimes talking to one person can drain away much of your energy. If I can turn back time, I will shepherd you well. If only. But I guess its too late. What i can do is just to pray for you.
But i assume sometimes what's done cannot be undone. When things are badly done, it just leave a scar behind Sometimes when things that you do doesn't help you just feel like running away. Hoping that its not your fault that it turns out this way.
Lord, use me to speak sense into the person's life. I hope I can be an impact to bring him back to you.
elise
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
@ 4:42 AM
I cant sleep.
elise
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
@ 1:57 PM
I, I dont know why i miss you so much Yeah I, I dont know why I still feel your touch You, you left me feeling high and dry With nothing, nothing but the question why Yeah you, I guess you had another direction And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection [Chorus:] If you call me todayIll say that Im fine But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice Its just a lie You knew what you had You still walked away leaving me in this mess My love for you is deep and meaningless You, you knew what you were doing to me And I, I guess I was too blind to see Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad But I'd do it again to relive what we had(Damn thats sad) There are many things left to remind me Of a love that I just cant leave behind me
Its a song. Kinda emo but its real nice. Ask me to send you if you want. :)
