all or nothing

2012-01-11T15:31:00.002+08:00

Hello people!

CNY is coming again! And for a Singaporean, I'm glad to be at home. At home meaning to be in Singapore. As you guys know, Singapore has a lot of foreigners. But during this period of time, its time to go back and celebrate with their loved ones.

Which makes me ponder, how is homesickness like?

Im not exactly patriotic or am i someone who truly treasures kinship. But through my boyfriend, (who is a Indonesian) i learned about loving and honoring parents.

I saw how faraway he felt from his aging parents, the missing pieces of growing up without parents by his side, the lack of control from his family, the moments of joy and sadness to whom his family weren't there, the kind of homesickness i'll never have in my entire life. I began treasuring and spending time with mine.

Today, i spent quality time with my mum. Woke up slightly earlier to have breakfast and a short time of shopping. I added a little joy to her life. It may not be significantly huge, but it does make a difference. I want to continue to do so and treasure her before its too late.

People in Singapore complain that time is too short to spend on people, career comes first, money etc etc. But I believe that making time is a choice. Make the right choice.

Once lost, no turning back.

2011-11-08T14:57:00.003+08:00

Just read my email, received one from ACCA which got me thinking.

Wasn't sure to be an accountant, i started on this accounting course ACCA for higher qualification. It is really tough, tricky and mind blowing. I learned a lot and made some friends. The learning process was rather smooth and steady. The exams questions aren't. Although it comprises only of MCQ, each of the choices were correct, and you need to choose the best out of them. Which means, you need to do a lot of memorizing!

Each modules has 18 lectures, i took 2, which equates to 36 lectures worth of memorizing! With the work load and career management, I find it difficult to juggle both equally important aspects of my life.

Worse still, I've heard too many horrifying testimonies of people who took the qualification. 40% of the cohort pass. Its quite a depressing news ain't it?

Sigh, nevertheless, i shall work hard with my remaining time left and do the best out of it. Afterall, its just the beginning of the 4 yrs of hell I've signed up.

God, please help me to be really really disciplined with my time, teach me how to study smart and spot wad topics i have to focus on. You know I'm not good academically but i know You will make a way. Be with me during my course of study. Amen.

p.s the email is to say that I'm supp to work in a firm with the relevant work experience relating to accounts and update them every yr. BUT the thing is, i love my current job and i don't think I'm qualified enough to go for any accounting role yet.

2011-10-21T14:41:00.002+08:00

Man, times have changed! People are switching from blogger to wordpress and now the 'in' thing is tumblr! I dun even know wad's that at first. As long as i can blog, I'm fine with the old. :)

Technology is advancing very fast, aren't they? Will we have robots on the road next time?

Anw, i can't wait for next week! Im on leave! Gonna pack my week with stuff to do!

CATCHING UP with people, before I'm on a long term 'weekend free' dude.

Cycling

Brekky

Studying

Currently chatting with Boon Kiat on fb, wanted to invite him for service! God, give me the opportunity to, i think it can work out somehow. :)

JIA YOU elise!!

2011-10-07T00:22:00.002+08:00

Wow! First time using MacBook Air to blog! Steve Jobs has indeed made a great impact to the world. Look at technology now! More than half of S'pore is using iPhone!

Anw, I was just thinking about something earlier. Fact is, I just had a fight with my sister. Not the first time, but there's sth different abt it.

I knew there's sth wrong with her the moment i reached home. Couldn't figure anything out. So i decided to ask her whether she wants some food, i cook for her. No reply. Fine, then she started throwing tantrums, demanding things and all. And, I got pissed. And i shouted and you know what happens.

At the end of it all, i teared, not just because i was angry but i was upset about not being christlike in this situation. It's not about what my sister did. I should have responded, not react. For once, i felt vulnerable.

I've always prayed for patience, but i never pass the test.

God, give me a big heart instead.

Magnanimous

that's the word.

2010-11-12T13:10:00.002+08:00

God is good.
Was feeling alittle out of sorts yesterday. Dunno who to turn to, i talked to God. For he already knows why and how i am feeling. :) And so, i prayed. And this song appeared out of nowhere on my mind.

Here goes:

Say the word and I will sing for You
Over oceans deep, I will follow
If each star was a song
And every breath of wind praise
It would still fail by far to say
All my heart contains
I simply live, I simply live for You

Chorus:
As the glory of Your presence
Now fills this place
In worship, we will meet You face to face
There is nothing in this world
To which You can be compared
Glory on glory, praise upon praise
You bind the broken hearted
And save all my tears
By Your word, You set the captives free
There is nothing in this world
That You cannot do
I simply live, I simply live for You

-I simply live for you

I was touched and felt really really loved. And once again, God never fails when you place your confidence in him.

2010-06-22T14:26:00.003+08:00

lousy is wad i feel now.
a sucky sister.
gloomy weather.
no activity planned.
rotting.

what i need now is a all time God, a part time bf and a damn good listening ear!
ARGH.

2010-06-08T12:11:00.004+08:00

the day before i cut my hair.

arent Geekger cute?

wow, its been 2 months since i last blogged.
Life's been really busy. With Ruth's wedding, birthday celebrations my work load and stuff.
Finally have some peace and time to myself. life's been hectic.

Its tuesday today and the weather is great, despite the rain. Was supp to be at sentosa now but i think God has better plan- for me to blog and spending time at home. :)

Let's talk about blessings!
Recently God has been really good and gracious to me. And i want to share with you guys out there, hoping to encourage. God always come at the perfect timing. Never too early, not too late.

1) I had a good chat with my boss.
He encourages me to go for courses, any course that interest me. And he'll pay for it. And of cos, i chose pharmacy technician course. heh. But im still searching for details. I know its gonna be tough but God, i know you will sustain me. I was thinking whether i could go for piano classes. Maybe i shld try my luck. haha.

boss wanted to go supper with me. hee. i cant help but giggle when boss wanted the rest to go home and eat with me. In his new BMW car. It is just totally cool. :)

2) I learn to save!
Though im still learning, but im trying to spend $50 per week. It is kinda hard, but possible. And i make sure whatever things i spent on, it is to benefit the KOG in big or small ways.

3) I am not gonna say i cant, it is too hard, no.
Zinc will fine me 50cents each time i said that! And i have the tendency to repeat myself. Esp leading cg worship. heh. I know i can smoke my way through, but no, if i want to experience God working in my life. So in a way, it is blessing in disguise!

4) i spend time pouring out my emotions to God. And it really helps!
Nothing beats God's word. I could totally feel God's touch. That feeling, is priceless.

Yayness! Im done with the blessings. take time to realize that God is always on your side.

2010-04-09T13:33:00.003+08:00

my cousin, who stayed over.

my cousin's son, whom i took care of during CNY.

Arent kids beautiful? Naughty but adorable. :)

I had a wonderful cg yesterday. God has been preparing me for cg. And he spoke. It was a clear divine moment with Him. Long time since i ever had that kind of conviction. And he used everyone in the cg, literally.

It had to do with death and tombstones for cg theme. And we wrote what we hope to see on our tombstone. Some wrote : is with God which i thought is very sweet. But what spoke to me was Jesus's tombstone: Remember me, trust me and spread my word to the world. It is these 3 commands that define a christian walk isn't it?
Its simple, but sometimes these words doesnt sink in into our hearts. And if we do those, i believe our faith will get stronger each day. And im doing it, by God's grace, to commune with Him everyday.

Worship was wonderful too. A pure heart to serve God and letting God prune me. Though he would rather not. All in all, after cg, i got the sudden urge to run, to run away from the world and its sinful temptations and release to God what i felt and the things only He'll understand. And before i could do that, He alr know my heart and calms me down. That is why He is so good. The shepherd of my soul.

2010-03-30T15:39:00.002+08:00

whoo. I seriously seriously love AVRIL LAVIGNE! She could totally express my feelings in songs.

Why

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel

My happy ending

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

its good to hear all these songs once in awhile. At least i know im not the only one struggling. Someone out there feels the same way too. Now i know, communication is key in relationships. Silence arent communicating. You've got no idea how much u are hurting me, let alone to put a smile on my face, everyday. I hope all these silly and fruitless thoughts will go away, soon.

2010-03-16T12:52:00.002+08:00

Was looking through the photos on my facebook and thought tt ive really grown. In terms of physical aspects. And photos are a whole lot of memories. I could still remember clearly the events that took place when photos are taken and laughed at some.

Sadly, it also showed that some friends became distant and i thought of what Zinc said.

'Some friends distant away from you at different life stages and you just gotta learn to let them go. You cant keep them at a close distance all the time.'

Which ive grown to accept that as i grow older. You've got to, no matter how difficult it is to let go and only let the images flash back in your memory. That is why photos are important.

Anw, im going running with Wei! Its a cloudy day and a cool day to run! I must get back to my exercise regime. Its been a long while since i last tt.

2010-02-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

We make our pacts ,
We're independent .
We dump our boyfriends.
And we do our hair anyway we would like .
We figure out , that we are attractive .

And we look around ,
And now we loved to live the single life .
And then we tell ourselves we'll never fall in love again .
But then he comes around and suddenly we understand ,
That we have never really been in love before.

And suddenly I know what all the love songs that they write are all about ,
And suddenly I dont care if its right or wrong as long as he's around ,
And suddenly the things that used to sound cliche are perfectly right in your eyes .
Perfectly right with this guy .

I know its wierd ,
But we are connected .
And in some strange and crazy way I think ,
That we have always been .

And now he's here ,
And he says he loves me .
And it feels so right ,
And In fact it feels so good that I can't sleep at night .

But I just told myself I will not fall in love again .
But he just came around and then he made me understand ,
That I have never really been in love before.

And suddenly I know what all the love songs that they write are all about ,
And suddenly I dont care if its right or wrong as long as hes around ,
And suddenly the things that used to sound cliche are perfectly right in my eyes .
Perfectly right when he's here .

And yes ,
I know you might get impatient .
But look around ,
He might be walking right in front of you .

And if he touches you and you feel your skin is burning .
Kisses you and you feel your stomach turning ,
He's the one ,
He is the one .

And suddenly I know what all the love songs that they write are all about ,
And suddenly I don't care if its right or wrong as long as your baby's around ,
And suddenly the things that used to sound clishe are perfectly right in your ears .
Perfectly right when he's there .
Perfectly right when he's there .
Perfectly right with this guy.

and yes, i am in love.

2010-01-26T00:47:00.005+08:00

I was online!
Take a look at the sky!
Was it blue tonight!

HAHA. That sounds like ive just created a rhyme.

Wanted to blog since Sat. Was too tired. Heh.
You know why sat?
Because God blessed mi with a new shop selling bubble tea at my work place! *giggles*
And i had one today. *all smiles* :D

So many blessings to share!
1. Work ended at 1110pm for mi! *on a monday night* *surprised!*
2. Chong organised a mini catch up session with *the four*
3. Pay is coming!
4. Cg has more people!
5. Received encouragements from people! eg: joyce tan, pris su
6. Was prayed for when im super nervous and shit cant seem to control itself! Thank God for you, dav.
7. new cg roles!
8.wonderful time spent with God!
9. Had shepherding and gonna have shepherding this week!
10. Watched movies and bought a new guitar! It shall be named .... geesie!

Haha, ive got so many things that has names for it.
please rem k?

camera- pixie
guitar -geesie
cushion -red
lego man -noel (combination of noah and elise)
bear -daton! (combination of david and eilton)
singing doll -tink!

As you can see, i like to name my things, it gives them a sense of belonging. And they seemed more personal to me too. I know them by names. :)

Oh yea, share with you guys one of my times with God. I was jotting down my thoughts about 2009. Sort of a reflection kinda thing. God has really blessed mi with lotsa things even though i do not deserve it. Too many to be named out. And one word to summarize my 2009: God is faithful. Throughout.

and this song came about:

How great you are
How great you are...
You are the mighty king
yet you chose to reign in mi

How great you are
how great you are...
I give you all the praises of my heart.

And i teared. God is just so amazing. :)

2010-01-07T17:26:00.000+08:00

yayness! Taiwan and HK trip this coming April!
So looking forward to it. :D

2009-12-27T16:33:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas!

Its been a tiring and dreamy week for mi, i would say. Being an usher for the first time brings me joy and a sense of fulfillment that im contributing to the KOG. However, when a crowd of people suddenly flood in, i felt faint. haha. Nevertheless, i did my best despite my hurting hemstrings and walk as professionally as i know how. :)

Im having a movie marathon. For the past two days, ive watched Sherlock Holmes and Bodyguards and Assassins. The shows are full of wit and loyalty respectively. And im gonna watch Alvin And the Chipmunks later! Whee! I think its gonna be so cute! :D

And, ive been a little moody these days due to fatigue. Alittle quieter than usual and alittle fiery when pissed. Haha. But thanks to DO (David Ong), he could sense it and doing his best to cheer me up! Thank you!

Okay, im gonna rest before meeting them. Till then. Busy busy week ahead with overnight cycling and badminton! :D

2009-12-22T02:43:00.003+08:00

Okay! The exciting thing God has plant in me!

Well, all of you here alr knows that ive asked for an itouch for a pressie. Now, this is what happens. EVERYONE knows im an IT retard. I dun even know how to set up itunes! And ive asked helpful jinqi to give mi a hand. (THANK YOU for your precious help, seriously) And there's still so many things i could do with it but bececause of my lack of knowledge for IT, the itouch remained untapped.

Spiritually speaking, sometimes i asked God for a big dream, just a dream, and God makes it happen. For eg: planting church. Like im able to go and all lar. I realised that i am not equipped with the knowledge and the skills im required for it. But God is faithful, He will send somebody to guide me, to spoonfeed me for awhile but ultimately, this dream belongs to me! So ive gotta claim the rights and make it mine. To learn everything and use it to the maximum impact, just like the itouch. :)

So, i really think that the gift has a significant reason-for God to speak to my life, and to bless me.

Lesson learnt: Do not ask too big a gift when u are not prepared. But when God gives it to you nevertheless, He wants you to learn the process the hard way.

And mind you, planting churches are not as easy as we think it is. The cultural difference, language, comfort zone, etc etc.

Question is, are we prepared for the gift?

2009-12-22T02:04:00.002+08:00

What a nice rainy night. Here i am, searching and talking to myself on why do i have a blog? Who's supposed to be in it? Why are some people in or some out? Well, i have no solid answer.

Ive deleted some readers from it simply cos they don't contribute to my life anymore. Or should i put it in a tactful way that they don't value friendship as much as i do? I hope its not one of the emo days again. Basically, this blog is supp to be one where i can voice out my unhappiness, joy, happenings, secrets without being judged. And yes, i am very afraid of being judged. I dunno why, but i guess cos im a people pleaser.

10 things you should know about me. ( very honest truth)
I am:
1) very prideful
2) either overly sensitive or totally insensitive.
3) impatient
4) one who sees that justice be done
5) naive (i believe in fairy tales)
6) vengeful
7) one who speaks my mind
8) carefree
9) simple. But people made things complicated and therefore i became complicated.
10) hard on myself and others. (critical?)

I can be a joy sometimes tho. I very much believed in ' to the Jew, i became like a Jew' theory. If u are nice to me, i am nice to you. And practically, monkey see, monkey do.

Am i like scaring you guys out there? I am just being brutally honest. you know, sometimes i wonder whether my blog has an impact on you guys or am i just sharing information about my life. And, truth be told, my life may not be as exciting as some out there.

My life, does it really interest you? Or you just want to find out what have i been up to? Or simply just being a busybody, chancing on my locked blog with the spare time that you have?

Haha, im done ranting. Besides, i wanna share what God has kinda implant a new insight to me.

2009-12-20T01:23:00.002+08:00

Okay, truth is, i just got my pay and bonus. This is the hard part. Building fund. 1.5x of my salary. It isn't alot compared to many people in my cg. but 3225 bucks is really hard to part. I could have use the money for a wonderful holiday, buy myself the things i need, save up for rainy days, give my parents more money etc etc. But for church building fund?! Its really alot. And i can totally understand how the rich struggle with themselves. Am i making sense here?

The Widow's Offering

⁴¹Jesus sat down opposite the place where the offerings were put and watched the crowd putting their money into the temple treasury. Many rich people threw in large amounts. ⁴²But a poor widow came and put in two very small copper coins, worth only a fraction of a penny.

⁴³Calling his disciples to him, Jesus said, "I tell you the truth, this poor widow has put more into the treasury than all the others. ⁴⁴They all gave out of their wealth; but she, out of her poverty, put in everything—all she had to live on."

God kinda reminded me about this passage. When i give, im giving unto God. No matter how my family despises the thought of giving to the church, how they condemn me, its ultimately me giving to you, not them. So, even though giving may hurt, i know that wad i give, is nothing compared to what you have already blessed me. And besides, money can be earned back. That's the greatest encouragement. :)

True giving hurts.

2009-12-17T02:54:00.005+08:00

2009 is coming to an end. Ive very much enjoyed the last month of it. Ive made new friends out of nowhere, got gifts which i totally didn't expect etc etc. Ive got many physical blessings, but none compared to the spiritual hunger i crave for. Birthday celebrations lasted for a few days, but it wasn't the one i longed for. Ive got to give thanks more often, i always tell myself. And to remind myself that im fortunate than most people.

Hanging out with wei and jo is fun. We tried out some Italian restaurants and made ourselves very comfortable at kith'a cafe. Well, we took some pictures, but its all inside Pixie (camera's name). Im gonna upload them, but i know its gonna take years. One day, i will do it. And hopefully its today.

Spent the remaining day with Kim and Qal. I was supp to plan, ended up in a store tt's under renovations. Took an alternative, went Clementi for a Sakura halal buffet. It was a long cold ride. Everyone's hungry and grumpy. Birthday boy Qal became weirdly quiet and we suspected that he is emo-ing again. And there he goes with his whining soon after. Food was good, and there are cakes everywhere, enjoyed ourselves totally and esp the company.

Roy is sweet. He got me three cotton roses and banana cookies for mi. Much effort made and very much appreciated. And of cos, food is in the picture too. Went for teochew porridge at 130am? And i stayed over at Priscilla's and we had a gal's talk. Which i love. :)

On 6 dec, Dav and Eilton met me. In which Daton Liz was born. I love the idea of making your own things and creating a 'life' and the much thought sincerity they put in. Although i felt alittle embarrassed, i loved the process anyway. And the reason i chose a bear out of so many things is because Daton always smile no matter wad happened. Which is wad i like abt him. :) And as if they are my cg members, they actually prayed for mi, something which i haven heard for the longest time ever. Accompanied by affirmations and of cos, awkward moments. Prayers nowadays, as you grow older, are rarer each time. Therefore, i'll grab hold of opportunities if i was ever asked.hey dav,thanks for planning a memorable bday for mi. I know you came out of your comfort zone.

And of cos my bestie, Xiuqi and Zach from calling and smsing from various countries. It is the heart that matters.

All in all, it is about friendships and relationship that keep us going. And people are the ones who made things possible. Who gave life its meaning. Other than God of cos. We are the reason why God put in so much effort and I can see that God loves us through people.

2009-11-10T12:43:00.002+08:00

Things ive learnt recently. I hope that my chosen friends will read it somehow and impact them.

1) I cant be everywhere at once and please everyone.

2) 10 minutes of FOCUSED reflection a day will have a ultimate/profound impact on the QUALILTY of your life.

3) MOST of us live in a frenetic pace that true stillness and silence is something foreign and uncomfortable.

4) Weak minds lead to weak actions

5) the purpose of life is a life of purpose. ( take time to decipher this)

6) The secret of success is constancy of purpose

7) what lies behind you and in front of you is nothing compared to what lies within you.

8) A heart for God can land you into dangerous things you never imagined yourself doing.

9) Poor leadership is not an excuse to excuse followers from building his kingdom.

10) No man can do everything, but every man do something.

2009-11-06T04:12:00.001+08:00

Dear God,
Its 354am and im thinking of stuff again. Its always about people u say. But then its always the people who made you upset. Sometimes i wonder if you would give up on us if we give up on ourselves? Then when u give up on us, would you be upset?

im a confused kid God, sometimes i gave up on a person but then end up feeling more than i should to help, but then i dunno how and eventually i give up totally. But somehow i know i shld do something abt it. Then i prayed. Wondering if things worked out. I hope for the best definitely, wants to know the outcome but lacks the courage to ask. Maybe its my pride that's acting up? Or maybe deep down, i know she's doing well. But then again, well on the surface doesn't mean well emotionally right? Just like having alot of friends in facebook doesn't mean they are actually your friends.

Moving on, I changed my shepherd! Shld have done that long ago. Looking back, i realised its not who your shepherd is, but who i really am. I know i shld have taken responsibility over my spiritual life, that wherever i may be, if my heart has you, anywhere goes. Zach taught me that thru his blog.
To live alone in a foreign county is a challenge. To live for you is a greater challenge. Therefore, to influence, is pretty easy. Live my life right. People will follow. That's my takeaway.
Anw, this is a picture of Halloween in Zouk. I din go. But i thought it was pretty real and scary. I was planning to go for next year's! Seems really fun and exciting!

2009-08-21T12:38:00.002+08:00

Had a mini catch up with Ruth last tues and really missed the times when she used to teach me alot of things. I could say that she is one of the shepherds that has live out the life example of christ. Looking back, she made me realise that i was the happiest when i just started out as a christian, when temptation wasn't even a threat, when serving God is abt goals and people and to be focus on the long race. I thank God for her in building my foundation strong, in being legalistic in certain aspects of my life. Now, as i move forward, things have changed. im more inward looking, im not as joyful as i used to be, but God, you never change, tho people move on to do their own things, you still remain faithful, and to this, i'll hold on to you.

Well, Ruth is still the same, getting married next year, and still as spiritual as she was in the past. God really test her in areas of her health but she stood firm and believe that you'll pull her through, and thats when you revealed to her who's for her and who's not. And sent people in her life to encourage her when she needed love the most. I guess you don't have to put me through painful trials to tell mi that someone out there loves me too. Because im sure, someday or another, you'll reveal to me. =)

Im catching up with friends ive served in youth later, its going to be an exciting time of fellowship and i really appreciate them for taking time to meet my needs. Spending time together with love ones is what i enjoy most. and i really treasure each and everyone who had an impact on my life, because you said that serving you is to do life with people too. and these are people in my life i love.

And God, ive just started yet another prayer book campaign for myself! Ita a daily affair with you everyday without fail. I made a covenant to do so! Just to spend quality time with you. God, bless our relationship and prune me in ways i ought to grow!

2009-08-14T01:22:00.005+08:00

me and kelly, the flabby-arms!

Me and jasmine the lameshit!

a nice tree at Tiong Park

random pic..

im so tired and itching all over.

army jumper with my hair down!

don't they look alike?

officer Su!

Distorting the uniform.

our very own 'JI GONG'

YES SIR!

HAHAHA!

Pris and her FAVOURITE Loppy!

trying out yet another hat!

dead on the bed

the love for big cute fluffy soft toys!

HAHA. I had fun taking pictures! Well, some of the photos arent allowed to put on fb. so a locked blog would be good! hee. Anw, im so gonna invest in a cap! It takes away bad hair day and keeps it neat! But let me warn you guys out there, wearing caps too often will result in hair loss! haha.

Dear God,

Worship was good today! Thanks for ministering words into people's hearts and using me even tho i was so scared! Well, u know that i'll freak out at the slightest things. haha. And, thanks for giving me courage to alter my attitude despite the sucky day at work. Man, these few days are really really tiring, my veins are poping out so frequently and i could hardly stand! TGIF! Night shift is good at times. So worn out by the patients and the ongoing appointments. WAR on Saturday!

Actually im pretty tired alr, im not sure why am i so packed. Let me scan through wad i did. On national day, we went cycling at East Coast, stayed over at Roy's. No wonder im so tired! Straight after, Zul me and Hendra watched GI-JOE. Seriously, the gals are sizzling hot! Where are all the good-looking guys?! Had dinner at Manhattan with hendra with my FBTs! wad a disgrace. But went anw. Hendra doesn't give a chicken feather. haha. Then, worked all the way till this coming sat! Oh no, thank God for today. For cg, to let my hair down and enjoy God and the fellowship. You know how much i needed and value this. =)

2009-08-06T17:04:00.004+08:00

QT on my bed. hee.

me and my bro!

cycling with Pris!

my sis looks really cute here. :D

Sentosa with zihui!

Dear God,
I am so lazy now.. Thinking of getting some chocolate art thingy for Nuo Han, but somehow, great world and my hse seems like 100km today.... Oh God, do honour my willingness if i do go down k? haha.

Work was monotonous today. I combed the whole shelf just to find 6 missing cards. And ive found 2 PRECIOUS cards. Praise God. And, boss smiled at me today! haha. Ive always liked it when he had that fatherly sincere warm smile. It makes working so worthwhile. hee.

On the way home, I saw Alvin Yip! It was so amazing how he actually saw mi on the bus stoning and he could wave just to catch my attention! im really a blur sotong manz. -.- And and and, i saw this pretty cute japanese girl with hair pinned up, nicely shaped eyebrows, and v-shaped t-shirt with a bunch of bball guys only to discover tt 'she' is a guy. -.-'' he must be wondering why am i stoning at his direction!

Anw, im going to bathe and get ready for cg. Choc Art for Nuo Han! i must be determined!

2009-07-31T00:21:00.002+08:00

GOD!!
I screwed up worship today! WHY ISIT SO? WHY AM I SO NERVOUS WHEN I KNOW I CAN DO MUCH MUCH BETTER?! I missed the chorus! I was stunned at my own work. I was very much affected by the incident. Worse of all, I din lead people to you! They were lost, Pris got to come in and help, I couldn't catch the tune of the guitar, I felt so... helpless. What a horrible worship experience. Sorry God, i din do my best. I screwed up. Big time.

2009-07-28T13:34:00.002+08:00

Dear God,

Sabbath was good. I came upon the song,

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

Reminded me of times i failed maths over and over again. When i was lying on the floor, crying, asking where were you? But God, you are never too late, you found me yet again. After a long long struggle. But its never too late.

I came across a quote:

"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else." -C. S. Lewis

It is so true.. There are so many things i can give praise for. there is no reason why i should complain. So God, continue to be patient with me as i discover more of you.

2009-07-24T12:10:00.003+08:00

Dear God,
It was an eventful week for me Lord, with 2 of my collegues down with suspected H1N1, i have much work to do. I pray that you'll take away their perpetually high fever, running nose and irritable itchy throat and be well again to be effective in things they want to do. Help them gain back their energy and may your power be on them so that they know tt someone prayed for them.

Cg was great, worship touched me deeply. I learnt to focus on you rather than the guitar playing, tho it was not the best, but I know you were in the midst of us, leading us through your spirit. It was really really ministering for me. I pray that i'll always have that in my personal worship and to experience you so tangibly everytime. But God, if you may, i pray that you, somehow or another, bless me with a guitar. haha.

Shepherding was good too. I shared to pris what i thot i would never figure how to put into words. But God kinda worked in our relationship and we opened our hearts. I shared with her my struggles with complaining and how i would demonstrate my anger and frustration. That was then i realised that we had the same problem! haha. No wonder you made her my shepherd to identify with me. hee. But we talked it out and kinda solve the problem.
To stop complaining, give thanks more. Thanks to Ong who taught me that when i was super grumpy. You sent people from everywhere just to help me with this problem. haha.

You indeed go all out for people! Im so gonna learn from you, esp when days i dun feel like it.

Before i end, i pray that you'll be with mi throughout today and give me courage to invite teng, Roy and zhi xiang to church this sunday! Oh yea, i pray for rain this sun morning so tt zhi xiang's soccer would be cancelled and he is able to come for church. make it work lord. Haha.

2009-07-02T00:02:00.002+08:00

Dear God,

The granny fell and hit her head. 5cm long and 2cm deep. When i saw her state, my heart goes all out for her. On the other hand, my hands cant stop trembling! It was so much blood! I basically prayed tt you'll will heal her and take away the pain. She was at a lost when she was wheeled into our clinic. God, i pray tt she's okay by now.

It was a busy day at the clinic, the phone cant stop ringing, the patients roam in and out and the granny broke her head. Everyone seemed to be sick. I pray that you'll heal the sick, Roy and Pris, who is going to fall sick and one had a splitting headache. Hope that they'll know tt someone prayed for them tt's why they had a speedy recovery!

Im going to sleep now God, help me to pull through tmr with a positive attitude! Cant wait for fri's prayer meet to experience you in a deeper and undisturbed manner!

2009-06-30T00:45:00.002+08:00

So many happening events recently. And i cant wait to share to my dear friends!

lst, i went night cycling with Priscilla and Roy! I was super tired but decided to press on cos i promised pris tt i'll go with her and build the friendship we once had in sch.

-got to know some ACJC ppl along the way. They were scared of the road. And, it's really kinda creepy along tt grass patch and the sudden change of temperature. But pris is super adventurous and brave. She took the lead. Thumbs up for her!

-got summoned by the national park. 400 disgusting bucks. :( Roy parked his car at the handicap lot. I hope he'll pass the appeal. =/

-got scolded by some random indian uncle. This is the lst time i saw roy's angry side. =/

Despite all these things, it was still fun, took some pics, but my phone cam wasn't exactly fantastic and i sat on the swing! That's the best part of the whole cycling man, besides the fellowship. And, some cyclist along the road thot im a guy. =/ cos of the cap i wore to prevent the hair frm going in. haha.

2nd, i made some new friends!

- through facebook, its my friend's friend. Pretty decent, still studying. But then again, i need to protect myself lar. Dunno wad's his motive for befriending me. And some junior from OSS. oh well, people with sweet tongues are not to be trusted easily.

- Pris is my new found good friend! Cos we share the same God! Im really comfortable sharing things with her.
Because we'll use biblical principles to comfort one another. That's why serving God is so good! :) We share the same love. hee. I missed those pantry times where we skipped the presentation jus to chill and wait for the presentation to end. Haha. More catching up to do!

3rd, my bro's going army soon. Do pray for him k? he's in school 1. I hope tt he'll pull through the physical trainings and not see any ghastly things over there. He's pretty timid abt such things. Im so gonna miss him man.
- going supper with him in a few minutes..
-used to cycle for supper last time. but now, my butt hurts and my bike is punctured. so no more cycling for the time being.

4th, i jus got my pay check!
-1 month bonus.
-got to pay my mum's cpf acc 400 plus thru my bank acc. thot i couldn't survive my the rest of july.
-starting a saving's insurance.
-stop spending on food!

hee. tt's all for now. im going to fellowship with my bro. And share life as we walk to the nearest food place! goodnight!

2009-06-26T02:13:00.003+08:00

AVRIL LAVIGNE! Sis you rock! Eh, actually, ive got stuff to blog about. But im so happy tt i forgot wad i wanna say. hah. Nevertheless, im looking forward to this sat's retreat! :D

P.S I cant wait for my hair to be long!

2009-06-23T23:15:00.002+08:00

Man! Im so disgusted and disappointed and irked and and and so many many emotions i cant figure out wad im feeling. :(

One thing for sure, I cant share my feelings to anyone as freely anymore. Which is sad, because i talk as and when i liked. Never would have thought these talks would be used against me. This really disgust me. And, if you think that im sharing with you because i like you, you are absolutely wrong. I shared because i want to rant it out. I don't like to bottle things up. I guess some of the girls would agree with me.

Man, i really really hate you. or rather, dislike, detest, argh! whatever bad things i could have mentioned! *&^%$#! I so wanna get my revenge. But but but, God is so gracious, when i so wanna do so, he reminded me to love and be patient and love keeps no wrongdoings. But God, let me rant first can? haha. He still have the balls to talk to me man. At this point of time i alr want to ask him to (*&^% off. Bacause of him, i rejected supper with cry, though he's sick. Poor thing, but yea, better be safe than sorry. And i hope tt he's not too sad.

God, im done with ranting. Im ready to forgive and help me help me to be patient and gentle in spirit. And don't be vengeful. hee. Help me to choose wisely the friends i should befriend and i thank God for the ones who knows me and still love me for who i am.

p.s forgive me if im too vulgar for u.

2009-06-19T03:33:00.006+08:00

this is the irritating guy who keeps wanting to take pictures with us. =/

do you think we look alike?

the muscle man!! Was blind the other day, now i know how he looks like! HAHA.

As you can see, im busy laughing away all the time.

me and adel.

first time im willing to be taken.

there he goes again. Everyone has a different pose we gotta do. =/

through thick and thin, we stick tgt.

don't you think he looks like a HK actor?

camp! my room playing BANG!

me and joey waiting for teaching to start.

camp's group photo!

Compare these 2 sets of photos. One is camp, the other is clubbing at rebel. Both are fun, but the only one that will last is ultimately the camp. I was telling Jinqi that that night was fun but because of that night, i realised alot of things. What the world offers and its temptation-too huge for me to bear. I prefer simplicity of hearts and the going after of God. Thank God i went only once. :) God always never fail to protect me from harm.

I realised that clubbing can be addictive, a display of Man's carnal nature. Where lust and fantasy develop. I thank God that im taught hands off policy since young, thus, not taken advantage of. I thank God for the muscle man, whose name i forgot, he helped mi somehow in my nightblindness to the toilet(tgt with Jinqi), who helped to pour drinks etc. I thank God for Jinqi, who never leave me alone, held tight to my hands before im pulled away by a super tall guy. I thank God for Adel, who saved me from the niger who wants to dance with me. Most imptly, i thank God for God, for giving mi this experience to teach me a precious lesson.

Camp was good. God spoke through me and rebuked me as well. I learnt to be a good listener and got closer to some of my cg mates. It was indeed worth the 360 bucks. I prayed for my leader, encouraged him and share some of my learnings. Despite all these flaws tha the church has, i believe, God will somehow use us, the next generation, to change things, may not be visible now, but i know, with clear certainty, it will come to pass. And, im gonna be a David's mighty man to my leader, who might need my support at this point of time. God, give me the strength and tell us what to do, the direction for the group and we'll glorify your name.
Ive prayed for patience, and ive got the feeling that God is testing me in waiting for the time to see the changes being done.

Slowly, but surely.

2009-06-05T01:19:00.003+08:00

hello world.
im back to blogging again. These photos are taken during david's birthday. As u can see, our face are damn oily and red becos its really really hot at Timbre. And david looked so sleepy. Haha. It was ard 12plus AM then. We enjoyed ourselves despite the heat. :D

Just went swimming recently. Got a tan and thighs hurt abit after the negliance of exercise. Ran with my bro after i came back from taiwan and died after 2km! :( elise needs to exercise! My stamina sucks. It'll be to do list to exercise at least once a week! Jia you elise! :D

And, camp's coming! Im quite exciting abt it. Not becos its a way of getting away frm work, but becos ps simon eng is preaching and i know im so gonna catch alot of things there. And and, my cg love taking pictures. I think im slowly blending in to the culture. :D and in fact, i liked taking pitures. Just dunno why i got all camera shy when its just abt mi. Roy is damn funny. He said that i belong to the camera world. He is the silliest guy ive ever seen.
Tell you guys a joke. Was out with wei and roy last tues. Mi and wei saw a food outlet which says Arnold's. The Fried Chicken. We were talking abt it.

Me: I wonder whether izit nice.
Roy: Hmm, i heard this brand before, it sells chicken right?

-.-
Me and wei laughed till nobody's business. Wei is super amused by roy's honest and sincere comments. They are really funny. And he makes a good shopping partner! oh yea, before i forget, ive officially crowned city plaza the next town! :D

yawns. cinderella chan has broken the rules. its 153am and im not in bed. Goodnight peeps.

2009-04-10T00:55:00.010+08:00

Hey!
This is my long waited bintan trip pictures! Man, how i miss the fun!! Im so gonna go somewhere there again one day! My volleyball days and camwhore! lol. Anw, there's qal, guava, me, ben, florence and desmond. All coffeebean members. Can you imagine how long i waited for the pictures?!

2009-04-03T02:46:00.003+08:00

Hey! I just realised that i really liked taking pictures afterall! But dunno why, i tend to be camera shy when im with people im not close to. But these are the only treasured memories i have. just in case i have dementia when im old. Haha.

How i missed the good old days.. But im looking forward for the better days ahead! :D

2009-03-18T01:07:00.003+08:00

Oh God, i was reading this blog and it really really seem very sad. I pray that you'll restore her even though i might not really know her. The way she phrases her stuff makes my heart goes out for her. Since i dunno her, i pray that you'll give her peace and make her whole again. Amen.

I woke up with a start today. It was 7:46 and im late for work !! I thought im definitely screwed. So i told myself to calm down and prayed. Got ready to leave the house and 8pm, God gave me a cab and i reached the clinic within 5mins. Phew, earlier than my boss. haha. Wore a dress, looked super messy with my unkempt hair and totally tired face.

To make matters worse, boss asked me to assist him in pap smear and to do an ECG on this LADY. I HAVE NEVER DONE ECG ON A FEMALE BEFORE. Basically, i saw her everything within a day. Made some booboo here and there but it was an experience. Can you imagine?! Trained by my boss PERSONALLY. One of the comments he said was,

Boss: Cover her when you go out of the cold room. Imagine you were the patient..
Me: Okay. My boobs will just freeze out there.
HAHA.

While doing the ECG, the patient asked me if i will let him do pap smear for mi. I was like: OF COS NOT! I will go to a female gynae. AND, im only 22!! Why would i do a pap smear?! I haven had my sexual intercourse!
Then she was like, oh yea hor. lol. What a funny comment she gave.

Anw, i went running today! I din know how to start, so i followed this guy (man, he can really run!), and run throughout Tiong park. My sis died along the way and we had much fun with the swing competition and the rope thingy me and wei did before. Will put up some pics if she ever upload it. I almost died doing the rope thing. Hope i can still give birth next time. HAHA.

okay, im off to bathe~

2009-03-07T18:11:00.002+08:00

Lazy day to begin with. Haven been sleeping well with the changing weather and the aching pain on my legs. Alot of thoughts on my mind. I guess im watching the wrong kind of tv shows and reading the wrong kind of books. Everything seems so ideal and protray that im living in another planet different from them.

Where is God in the picture? That's wad things are missing out. I told jinqi i forgot to pray for the entire week. And, i ate without saying grace. Oh man, im missing God out in my daily routine. Things really really seemed very empty. Or perhaps its just another saturday night im doing nothing? Am i suffering from depression? Why am i over reacting over the slightest thing?

Sleep, work, home, church all became part of my life. And that's no life at all. =/
God, are you part of it?

2009-03-06T14:13:00.004+08:00

What a sunny sunny day! :D Im slacking at home cos my legs are giving me major problems. Im pretty fine with it cos i ran from my house to Clarke Quay at 11pm on tues. What a breakthrough. Oh well, running regularly helps get rid of the strains and muscle aches! I must make it a habit to run every week!

Oh, im having my usual sinus as i typed away. This sinus lasted more than it should for today. :( Hopefully it goes away when i work. Hee. Cant wait to work. Hopefully no more ECGs for me to do.

Talking about work, 2 of my collegues' birthdays are coming. I need to count the cost. We bought them French Connection watch and a sworski earings. (if i spelt it correctly) Each of us got to give $56.

For this month. Here's my spendings:
Church camp: $360
Dental: $200
Parents' allowances: $500
Tithing: $200
That's alr a total of $1260.

OMG, im left with $300 for my MISC. Oh God, help me to spend wisely. Talking about money, I haven been tithing. On one part, its hard to part with that amount(though its not alot), on the other, im just thinking, why am i giving money to the church staff? If i give 200 bucks, the church has 1000 who gives tithing, each 200 and above, that'll be $200,000. That 's alot eh. But then again, I cant be thinking this way because the church staff also did alot to help the church grow. Hmm, im a confused kid. Anyhow, Im tithing because its God's money, regardless who gets it. This sounds much convincing. here goes my $200..

Other expenditure: Taiwan trip
$1.5k at least. Omg omg, save save save!! No more supper and more maggie mee!

2009-03-06T01:23:00.005+08:00

Its been raining the past few days. What a wonderful weather to sip a cup of hot chocolate and read an interesting book. A series of events happened and things go pretty much the same.

I loved work last wednesday. Cos i saw my favourite boy and he is sooooo cute! He gave me a flying kiss and a smile which totally melted my heart. Children are the joy of their parents. And they are the reason why couples reconcile the relationship. Not always, but most of the time. And and and, i love the look on the parents' face when they cuddle the child. The family atmosphere. It was a lovely, sweet sight. (:
( My freedy look alike patient asked whether im the doctor's sister. -.-, we don't even look alike!)

Cg was great bonding, with playing amazing race ard wisma. Finding certain shops and taking retarded photos. Take a look at some.

Taken at art friend, imitating the skeleton behind. I looked shocked. haha.
Supp to read a book at kinokuniya's coffee club, but it was closed.
A LV pose we've got to do. Seems like we looked kinda cute in it.
British India pose
Supp to bite off a fish head pancake, I was hungry, so i offered my service. hee.

This picture was taken from GUESS. Was taken illegally. Looks as if im about to steal them. Item is the wallet on my right hand.

All in all, it was fun and I enjoyed myself tho we lost the game. What to do?! Im with 2 guys! And, im not a shopaholic. hee.

2009-03-03T00:52:00.002+08:00

2 march 2009

Shah says:
i have a feeling that i can dish out the worst of me and you'd still accept me the way I am.

GENTING says:
talking to you there is loads of comfort

elise says:
haha. is it?

elise says:
tt's an encouragement. (:

GENTING says:
well that is for me, because i know i dun feel judged.

I hope i can really live up to their standards.

2009-02-24T17:08:00.002+08:00

I liked this blogskin. If only i can put my own artistic pictures in it. Although i generally dun like taking pictures, i do have alot of wacky pictures with my sisters. heh. Some day, i'll post it up. :)

Was gazing out my kitchen window and looking out to the rain. I wish i could take a pic of how marvelous the sky was and the raindrops on my window. But my phone do not allow me to. =/
I liked the window alot. It's a place where i reflect, talked to my loved ones, tear when i had a nightmare or when im awfully sick. It brings back wonderful memories.

Spent my day being a day housewife. Made a meal of fishes and porridge for me and my sis. Im surprised and my sis was too. Afterall, ive never done that in my 22 years. haha. Been reading up about yoga and it really really interest me. Spent 2 hours online searching on it, let's hope there's someone who's willing to go with me as i overcome the fear of embarrassment of how skinny my body is. And to wear sports bra and pants?! Lots of things to overcome before i take on the challenge..

Ive start a new hobby, reading reader's digest! Its really enriching and i hope i can learn much from the world through that magazine and move on to national geographic and to times magazine. Reading has been part of me since i transferred. :)

And oh, skype is an amazing thing. Was telling jinqi how this person of 17 years talked to me. That was when i know that i had skype in my com! But its not my acc. haha. He's been nice and all tho. Was choosing an eng name that suits his surname. Random stuff. But then again, i like random stuff. Esp random gifts! Haha. Thanks wei ting for tt toga dress! I love it! :D

2009-02-20T15:13:00.002+08:00

Dear God,
I led worship yesterday during cg. I thought i would faint in fear leading people who are older, into your presence. But i guess it was refreshing for me and i sang my heart out despite the crowd. I overcame my fear of failure. Thank God for it. Holy com was rather interesting as well, we were told to relate not only to you but to the cg as well. Hendra suggested we pray OR affirm the one next to us. And so, i prayed for him. And to my surprise, he affirmed me for my willingness. To lead worship. I know im unwilling and fearful of the outcome but God, you made it happened and i guess people are ministered. And thats the whole point of worship.

For the first time in cg, i felt your presence in the group, the holiness, the godly things we said, the things we prayed. It was as if im in youth again. No more barriers. I pray that this will not just be within the 4 walls. :)

Before i forget, always remind me about the things i wrote in that paper. To accept, to apreciate and to add on to people. I wanna do it to Jinqi and i hope you can make it happen, clear away the prejudice and make me comfortable with her. Im going out with her, make it a good one where we can share life openly. I trust and commit this blooming friendship to you.

2009-02-17T03:45:00.003+08:00

Im having some serious insomnia again. Weird thoughts flood every now and then, things that doesn't concern me pop out of no where. Making me skeptical and worried for no apparent reason. I know these sounds dumb, but things of the world suddenly overwhelm me, leaving me stoned and wondering about life.

After blog hopping, i reckoned that some blogs give you the positive feel and some don't. Some hide their feelings and some, concerned of their own spiritual life and blogged about their empty lifestyle. As for me, since im already locking it, i guess i can be honest. I like sharing about my life and hope that people will learn from my mistakes and move on, on the other hand, i dun wanna stumble people too. Caught in the middle i guess. I wouldn't say im that spiritual but i hope im moving towards it each time.

A minute ago, i was thinking about looking good, and God straight away enlightened me with the verse, seek first his kingdom and everything will be given to you as well. I always thank God that everytime i feel like sinning, or tempted, God always pop some verse in me. So, i guess i can never run away from him. Life w/o Him may be good, but its not eternal. Remember elise, choose the right thing.

What do you find in a friend?
Availability and a good listener make good friends with me. You may not be very good with words, as long as you listen to me, make time for me, we can be really good friends. I may appear strong but i guess deep down, im vulnerable in certain ways. Im fearful in friendships. I dunno who to trust, who will accept me, who will leak out my secrets, who is always there when i needed them and who would listen. I never share all to one friend. Cos, im insecure. That's it.

I don't enjoy friends who have alot of close friends. Because, they will treat you like any other friends. If you get what i mean.

2009-01-23T03:04:00.005+08:00

Yay! Just finished my ppt. You've got no idea how complicated medicine names can be! Took me so long to type and double check the spellings. =/ Thank God its done!! =))
Ive got lotsa ants to accompany me throughout. I think its the ants season. SOOO many. Tsk tsk.
Ive got much rashes for killing them.

Anw, ive just facebooked and realised many people are so into it. Eg, you can add someone just because you've got the same name! Haha. And of cos, for networking purposes and to know new 'dates' too. Just facebooked guava. Hope she gets it and reply soon. GUAVA! You are greatly missed.

With Chinese new year's coming, ive just highlighted my hair red! Wanted green initially, but then again, green needs bleaching. :( And i wonder whether my boss will be displeased. heh. He was alr shocked with my red hair. Well, red is the new black! :D I think i look really hip and punk. haha! i permed it too. heh heh. Can you imagine?!

Here are some pics taken awhile ago.

me, freedy, eilton and hannah!my Cg!Myself with the gift Hendra gave! i love this photo. hee.adel and me!my friends at work!

2009-01-06T17:36:00.003+08:00

Its been yet another year. Time flies. We'r all grown up. :)
Was browsing through blogs and realised many things have changed. May it be good or bad.
But one thing i thank God for, is the friendships i kept.
So thank God for you..
Oh yea, thank God for xiuqi. I wouldn't know wad to do without you. Thanks for the support and the continuous encouragements. You are truly a god-given friend. Dunno how we keep this long distant relationship. Hp bill must be very expensive. haha.

Ive got so much time to spend. Shld i go for a course? Should i learn something new? Shall ask pris when i meet her later. :) Class's starting soon! ciao.

the old has gone, the new has come.

2008-12-22T23:21:00.002+08:00

im angry.
im lost.
i dunno what you want.
you made me feel weird.
as if im from another world.
stupid you.

Vince's farewell

2008-11-18T13:23:00.004+08:00

Kelly, Jasmine,mum,vince,weeteng, me

Do i look like my mum?

Our identical features. Except the teeth. :(

lovey dovey!

gurls rule!

family pic!

me, aunt, uncle and vince

That was my bro's farewell on sat. Coming back next year april. :( Hope it'll be a great adventure and experience for him! I will miss you! And dun worry, i'll still give you your monthly allowance. Safekeep for u first! :D

Anyway, ive been having weird dreams of people recently. Vince and wee teng, some unknown person etc etc. And the most beautiful thing i dreamt of was my bedroom! It is open air concept and i could see the stars soo clearly! The sight was awesome. And i was distracted by my bro asking mi to eat. =/

Boss in bad mood recently. And im working full shift on mon, wed and fri. classes on tues, thurs and sat. Practically no free day. But then again, the month's gonna end soon! HAHA. And im soo excited for december season. With christmas coming up and my first d&d in my clinic and cg's gonna have some programs. Sounds really cool!

Things to give thanks for:
1) boss was guilty for scolding the wrong person and im redeemed from the grave error.
2) I found peter's (hope hk) facebook!
3) new friends
4) the church
5) tv
6) family

Let me explain the thanksgiving.
Of cos i gotta thank God for the church for which i found new friends. Though i transfered not long ago, im pretty surprised that i could communicate with them and they made mi feel at home. Esp seng, pris, jinqi and gerald who doesn't seem to stop talking. HAHA. I thought i'll be the only phleg there but apparently, there are quiet people there too! Eg: zy and hk. Maybe they are quiet becos they dunno me. But i cant be judgemental too. So take it that they are quiet then. heh.

Let me tell you sth amazing k?
On sunday, after service some of them has salsa class (which i thot it was fun and dun mind joining if i know the initial steps, haha) the rest of us went out. So, we were supp to r&r at starbucks but seng suggested pool. So we went over to meridien's. Then again, i dun usually play and i dun like the idea of alot of ppl crowding over a small pool table. So i asked whether anyone would be interested to have some ice cream over at B&J. Response was little,( because walking frm meridien to cathay is far) so hk went with mi. I felt abit weird cos i din see/talk to him before. i was praying that God would give us topic to chat abt.

And so we walked, he asked abt certain things frm youth and the culture differences and all. Mentioned that he saw mi before in youth and we talked abt our jobs. It was kinda ongoing and as he talked, i realised he is walking at the same pace as me!! HAHA. It was a culture shock becos im always the one lagging behind! And i smiled uncontrollably at him. (he must have thot im weird)
upon reaching B8J, we talked abt the flavours of ice cream and he was having a bad sore throat. So i thot im the only one eating and he watching me eat. (which is so uncomfortable) So i decided to promote the flavours which are not so sweet and tempted him with the discount i hold. In the end, we are happily eating ice cream!

After that, we are heading back to find the rest and saw gerald, he's having meeting at B&J, so we walked back to cathay again. =/ After his meeitng, abt to find the rest after their salsa and pool and we realised that they went home alr. :( left the 3 of us. Then im supp to meet wei at far east. So i asked hk whether he wants to walk there tgt since he has nth on and gerald has to go. Honestly i wasn;t expecting an okay. but he agreed anw. It indeed caught mi and frm cathay we started strolling. The weather is super hot and we walk in and out of shopping centres just to air ourselves. It must be retarded walking ard the levels. but oh wells, we did it anw.

And so, we reached far east!! I wanted to withdraw money and joined the q. Unfortunately, the atm cant dispense cash!! And guess what? hk suggested the underground at wisma so we walked all the way back jus to get some cash and walk back to far east. Im alr beat and perspiring by then. so being the hungry ghost, we ate ate some ice cream thingy at the basement. It was great and it did cool me down a fare lot. And there came wei and so we parted.

I cant believe i spent the whole day walking around orchard. But i did thank him for walking with me and holding the convo throughout. Its been long since i enjoyed talking. Thank you.

okay, im tired. gonna have lunch with kelly and off to teeth plucking and class! Thanks for reading the whole lot of my day on sun. xin ku ni le. :)

2008-11-14T13:35:00.002+08:00

this is what made discipleship great.

So long since i came online again! Alot of things happened. And of cos, being the usual me, im not quite sure how to put my words across. Only then, i realised ive taken you for granted. Hope we can find time to meet up soon! I cant wait to see you and tell you the great and wonderful things that are happening in my life and to share my joy with you. :)

First update: ive just plucked 2 teeth!
For my braces. Ive been dreaming abt it since my sec sch days. Which is like how many years?! No more rabbit teeth! Im excited myself and glad that i took the courage to make my own decision. Of cos, my mum and some other people do not agree. But i guess i live to make things happen in my life and im glad it is the correct choice. :)

Second update: Ive been to my pharmacy assistance course!
The contents are interesting i would say, but the lecturer is boring..... Nevertheless, i scored well for my daily tests and recently, a 16/20. :(

My random thoughts!
1) cant wait for my hair to grow
2) deciding the color for my braces!
3) bonus!
4) birthday!
5) holiday!

And alot of things! which i dun think i have the time now and ive got so many many questions up my brain waiting to be cleared. Not things of the world like obama kind but something more meaningful and eternal.

2008-10-17T14:04:00.002+08:00

HAHA. I found the pic with my short hair! okay. Abit over excited but everybody really look happy in that pic and it makes mi happy too!

2008-10-17T01:38:00.004+08:00

HELLO world!

This are the pics and wad ive been doing. Pictures speak a thousasnd word. well, im having dawn yeoh's hair now. And alot of ppl said so. :(

Hmm, im lazy to post any other things but rest assured im having fun in my own way! Till then.

2008-07-20T18:44:00.003+08:00

SOMETHING MORE

Its been long since i last update my blog. hope everyone's doing fine. :)
Well, everything's great for me. A stable job, group's growing etc etc. But i guess something more impt is missing. The yearning for something more. How should i put it?

im beginning to feel like im in a working world. A world full of deceits and politics. Yet in this world im living in, there is something beautiful out there for each of us to discover. Like a child looking for more sweets and is never enough. its not abt greed, but something more spiritual than just living the normal life of working, getting into a relationship, get married, give birth and die. I realize that i yearn to do something more.. significant.

What do you want to get out of this life? Think about it.

2008-06-05T03:11:00.003+08:00

I was looking through at some links, blogs etc and i realized that people do have alot of friends. Eg: facebook.
You may have 300 over friends, but none who are close to you. My sheep was just mentioning to me how she too has alot of friends but no one close enough to share her everything. Her joy, her sorrow, her results etc. How sad it was! And i concluded that friends are not your world but an important asset in your life. There and then, I thank God for Xiuqi, whom i can share deeply and openly. I may not have many friends, but the ones i have, are my dependable friends. Thank God for you. You are greatly treasured.

angela
jinqi
winnie
zach
ong
freedy
daniel
kim
qal
guav
png
denise

Some who see my good and bad days. Above are the ones who helped and shared their stories with mi. Those not mentioned, you are somewhere in my heart too. Whatever it is, im glad to know you. :)

Friends, one of God's wonderful creation.

2008-06-05T02:32:00.002+08:00

Haha. Cheryl the hiphop dancer took this! I guess i must admit im having fun working. The people are really nice and chatty. We talked abt anything and everything under the sun. If only they are christians, we'll talk abt God and play christian songs in the outlet! Jasmine( the one in green) is super smart and nice. Girls working tgt are not so bad after all. More pics with Sang and Cherilyn! And guess wad! Taking pictures are in their blood! Haha, i hope i dun become a bimbo or whatsoever! :)

Anw, QT was great and im learning something new everyday. But basically, QT shld be done everyday so that you wun lose track of wad the passage is abt and God always speaks through the bible! So peeps, dun ever thought of missing QT!

2008-05-30T13:22:00.002+08:00

Has been rather lazy to blog or even come online these few days. Busy training up my spiritual being. :) Anw, i went for leadership conference in malaysia and learnt pretty much abt myself over there. Its more of a self discovery kinda thing. Had a bad scare over snorkeling(if i spelt correctly). And it made mi realise certain things.

1. We are made for different things/likings.
2. i detest water based activities.
3. Man are self centered.

After the horrifying experience, i was lost for words. While the rest are busy snorkeling away, im there picking seashells which makes me feel great and relaxed. I thank God for the wind there and then and walking along the beach thinking how to explain to the rest why am i not comfortable with snorkeling. To my expectation, everyone questioned and i really felt bad for not joining. But yea, i shall not further elaborate anymore.

God has been putting this word in my head for awhile now. Differences. Like i said, we are all made differently. Some quiet, some bubbly. Some adventurous, some not. But we are all made attractive. Eg: Cats are attractive to dogs, mice to cats etc. So i thank God tt he made me attractive to somebody out there who will appreciate my differences. :)

I was talking to reynard abt this incident and asked if he would find his wife a burden if she isn't as adventurous as him. This is his ans.

Rey: Nope. I would encourage her to try, but if she is too scared, i wun force her. I will respect her decision and will follow suit.

I was dumbfounded. Many guys would find their wives holding them back from doing what they want to do and often choose someone who is like them. But to reynard, he said it with such simplicity which stunned and amazed me at the same time. It is indeed a priviledge to be his wife. (he is only 15 btw).

He made me realised that love is respecting one another and slowing down when there is a need. (not spiritualwise) Love is not self seeking. :)

2008-05-15T00:54:00.002+08:00

Today is my last training at B&J's. We stayed till 4 plus to try out the drinks and all. Finally finished everything with a typhoid jab. My hands are pretty numb but manageable. Cant wait to start work! Anw people, listen up! Im posted to GREAT WORLD CITY outlet! Abit out of place for you guys but EXTREMELY convenient for me. :D I think God really meet my needs.

However, Zach and Tiff are posted to different outlets. Demsey and United Square respectively. Though we are all very seperated but i guess we will have fun!

Im not sure when im starting work, but i'll update you guys again! have a fruitful week!

2008-05-14T00:30:00.002+08:00

Heyo!
Ive started training in Ben & Jerry's! It was pure fun and full of laughter. Got to know new friends and their command of English is like OMG! Sounds bimbotic but good! Had a hard time communicating to some of them at first because im not exactly used to the accent but i guessed after 3 days training tgt with them, i understood some fairly well. :) They are super encouraging bunch of people and you feel really happy working with them. Maybe there is food involved too?Haha. Ate ALOT of ice creams and make alot of boo boos. Like yknow i almost scoop one of the chocolate ice cream into the vanilla one? Cos the ice creams are SOOO hard!! BUT but but!! The taste is really awesome! It will be my joy and pleasure to introduce you some flavours if you want. :) chunky monkey, strawberry cheesecake, phish food etc. mamamia!!

Wed will be the last day with some of them cos we are moving out of united square to our own individual outlets to practice. Will update you guys where i am so that you can join in the fun that im having and support mi by having ice creams! No free ones though but rest assured that the ice creams you are eating are of utmost quality. Its simply heavenly. Whoo!

Check out the ben and jerry's website. Its cute and there's games too! :)

2008-05-08T01:07:00.004+08:00

yay. im not going work later. No one gets hurt emotionally. :)
oh man teresa! i seriously think i got depression! if according to what you wrote on your blog is accurate. haha.

So anyone who thinks you have depression, go on to teresa png's blog and check it out yourself!

Anw, thank you for the sales today. and sorry for being mean to you the other d
ay. =/

2008-05-07T01:02:00.002+08:00

phew.
ive got nothing much to post abt.
or rather its too personal to be known.
Wait till i settle my heart
and the known will be known.
Till then.

Dear God,
Work tmr. hope it turns out well. help me to trust and provide in your timing. help me to give thanks even when i have nothing. Remind me of your faithfulness and that you will never fail to deliver your word. Help me to believe and overcome my unbelief. In you i trust.

2008-04-23T01:03:00.002+08:00

oh man teresa!
I TRY to sound very positive alr!
Maybe its mensus causing me to have moodswings. :(

ooh! my mama did a good thing to me today.
She BLESSED me with 10bucks!
I saved some tho. (:
And she offered me this drink which has barley and green bean combination.
My cramp grew worse and i thot im having a miscarriage!
But its alright now. (:
My mum really loves meeeee, cos the drink is soo sweet! And i love sweet things!!!!

2008-04-22T01:20:00.003+08:00

Woke up abruptly with my mum at the background shouting my name away. I was requested or rather 'forced' to vacuum the marble floor. Reluctantly, i pulled myself out of bed and obeyed because God will be pleased. ( i cant believe that this is the real reason, but it is true) The experience applied that ive not done housework for long and vacuuming is one of the easiest thing to accomplish! Thank God!

Met Daniel and he indirectly suggested that my resume sucks big time. You guys should take a look at my poorly done resume. Daniel wanted to kill me over at starbucks. =/ The only achievement i attempted was under the category of Hope Church. And i thought it was sarcasm intially. =x

Job searching is tedious. Went into many shops and i was still pondering whether i should accept the job offer by gelare. $5 per hour. Flexible hours. One weekend commitment over the period of 6 months probation. Starhub providing training 7pm to 10pm. Bukit Panjang. Door to door sales. Telemarketing 3 to 6pm Tanjong Pagar. $6 per hour. Which one should i choose?

God, help me to be kingdom minded and choose my working hours wisely. I know you will definitely provide and you know that i desperately need a job now. I want to be salt and light in the things i do and give me wisdom and extraordinary faith to believe. Help me to be choleric for once. Amen.

My ez-link card is empty again. I dun wish to top it up and dun wish to travel anywhere unnessarily. Reason being, i dun wanna ask my mum for money and im broke. I prefer taking buses. Buses provides the ability for mi to let my mind wonder and think of other things that are less stressful. I dun wanna let my body suffer for the things it did not cause. All these will be gone, i know. (:

When the world is falling out,
from under me,
i'll be found in you,
still standing..

There is something seriously not right with my speech. Change, change change! Patience patience patience!

2008-04-14T01:11:00.002+08:00

I realised that i always sound emotional in my blog. I din mean it to be. =/

Okay, im fine with sleep and all alr. Though i dreamt YK came back from camp right after he booked in. And WeiLing time travelled. And im lost. Haha.

Let me start with something more exciting.
I talked to Hope Brisbane people and they are really inspiring! They worshipped lead so well and im totally mesmerised. Seeing their passion for youths really makes me think that what im doing here is just a small contribution. What's exciting is that i'll be able to share my story to other people as well, not just in Singapore but all over the world! Nothing less than being biblical and winning the world! Even when i moved to adults. Nothing less that God's best for me. Why settle for something that's just a passing cloud? Being on earth is just a journey and heaven is an eternity world of goodness. I dun mind working harder just to inspire people. After all, pour a bucket to inspire a drop. I know i cant be some popular singer or actress, but at least, i can be someone whom God considered faithful and worthy. Doing great and magnificent things for Him. That'll be enough.

I hope this passion will not die down and continue to spread this to many people and i hope that they will catch my spirit and conviction. We have only one life. How are we gonna live it? Just enjoy with your friends? Going for relationships? Emo your entire life? Go for branded goods? Play useless and senseless computer games? Work till you die? Or have a satisfying fulfilment? Get married and lovey dovey tgt till the day u die?Basically, what's your purpose in living?

I hope its some food for thought for u in here. :)

Excitement still overwhelms over me.
Just the mention about you.
And if i were to live life all over again,
i would still choose you.
If you are confused about life, join me in my conviction.

CHURCH IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANY OTHER THING. -that's my principle

2008-04-11T01:01:00.002+08:00

im broke.
too sian to blog anything.
somebody cheer me up.
=/

I know you'll provide. With faith. :)
And that's enough consolation.
Thank you for being there.
When i needed you the most.

2008-04-09T01:16:00.002+08:00

I love sleep.
But now im afraid to sleep.
Afraid of dreams.
Which wakes mi up in the middle of the night, crying.
Wakes up in the morning forgetting what i dreamt.
Its scary. How dreams can distort you. And takes reality away.

Im not sure how to explain
but its a terrible feeling
and if this goes on
i would be surprised
finding myself screaming at 4am
with eyes looking at me, lights turned on
sweat flowing down my face
dumbfounded
Because im not sure wad's wrong with me.

time check: 1:37am

God, take away those dreadful dreams. Or interpret the dreams for me. Help me to differentiate between wad is real and wad are dreams. I dun want to live a world of my own.

2008-04-04T01:40:00.003+08:00

Im just being random here. Pictures from year 1 year 2, year 3 .. How much Ive changed. Oh well, i'll have to admit that im old. heh.

Have you ever wondered whether you are traced to the blogs you have visited? Sounds scary huh? Technology is so advanced that when you visit a blog, the owner of the blog knows it. Not just that, you are traced exactly how you arrived to that particular blog.

O.o
Maybe i shall blog hop less or have any secret blogs that i visit. IP addresses are no longer useful in tracking you down anymore. So, beware of where u are visiting. Hurhur.

2008-04-02T14:43:00.002+08:00

http://youtube.com/watch?v=OTN2fFgb17s

Step 2 song. im ultimately bored.

Apple Bottom Jeans [Jeans]
Boots with the fur [With the fur]
She got the whole club lookin at her
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low

Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reeboks with the straps [With the straps]
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack [Ayy]
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low

This song is addictive. :)) Shake your body everyone!

2008-03-31T01:21:00.002+08:00

Man, i slpt pretty much and even in the midst of slping, i can still reply reynard's smses and doze off thereafter. haha. Had headaches pretty often nowadays and im amazed at myself that i can still function well despite it. And my nose is killing me! With the bleeding and mucus, O God, take away my discomfort!

Anw, my blog was accidentally blurted out. =/ I was kinda dumbfounded and its not the first time it happened either. Had a little explanation to make and of cos the other party was completely surprised at that. Which leads to the question.
How long can i protect my blog?
There's a saying. 1 spread to 10, 10 spread to 100, so on and forth. And i guess sooner or later i gotta face the fact that everyone will eventually know. And sadly, not from my own mouth.

" a slip of tongue, a world of explanation be done. " -elise chan

ULM was interesting and it was rather engaging but i was sincerely asking abt why does analogy helps in teaching and nt other form of methods and i was rudely cut off. I was unpleased by that gesture but din pursue the matter, I thot i would flare at that moment but i proudly say that i DID try to control my facial expression by slping and praying at that instant. Afterall, attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference. Change that attitude, expect growth.

Sth ive learnt: males can differenciate correcting issues apart from insulting the person. Females thinks that if you pinpoint the issue, you pinpoint at the person as well. Which i utterly agree. Ive learnt and applied. Right in this post. :)

2008-03-28T11:39:00.002+08:00

Pictures from the night cycling with Wei ting and Angela!
Me and Wei stoning while Angela is trying to think of a pose for us. hah.

Sunrise! By then, im alr physically dead.
Just a sidetrack. Found this in an email. What an interesting name! A combination of 2 superheros ! haha!

Anw, ive learnt from the night cycling that loving a person requires much patience and acceptance . To put them before yourself. To love, you need to corrrect whenever its needed, to teach all that you've learnt, to give your all. To be patient with the mistakes made and to accept/ forgive thereafter. it's like giving your life to the person, and you know, sometimes when you are not appreciated, you get stabbed and wounded. Worse of all, you need to give grace after all the hurts you've went through. I guess this is called love. Not unconditional but close to it.

So have you loved enough?

2008-03-28T01:08:00.003+08:00

Oo.. busy busy busy. With no work, gyming, shepherding running and of cos, eating!
I dun understand why my time passed so quickly. Maybe its because i enjoy the things im doing. As you guys know, good times pass faster than usual.
Ive got alot of pictures i wanna post up but its all in another com. im using my brother's one now. And its hard to type! And now, peace in my family! All has their individual lappies and desktop! :D No more fighting and quarelling! Coolio!

Ive got much blessings this week. My bro's working for this company which allows him to bring back alot of stuff! HAHA. I sounded like a cheapo but you know wad? its Garnier stuff which is not cheap eh. ive got everything and my box is increasing. Funny thing is, i dun usually use them. And my sis (th youngest one) has alot of make up stuff. I dunno why she needs it when she's still so young. Shrugs. When you grow up you become more vain i guess?

Not to forget, Roy's going Taiwan. For holiday i suppose, and he's getting things for mi too! Anw, its not the actions that make it sweet, but its the thought tt counts! Man! So many blessings in this week. God is indeed faithful to his people! Cos i think I work the hardest this week! And God, knowing im a gift person blesses me with gifts! When you work hard, God will not shortchange you. Weet! Once again, he demostrated his favour upon me! :)

Blessing of the world! I was brought to the beaches of Singapore! Even tho its not the most beautiful one you can find, but i still enjoyed it alot. Wanted to see stars, but it was cloudy. Full moon tho. Nice place for relaxation and hearing out for God! The wind, the sea, ships and the comapny. It was simply awesome.

2008-03-18T00:51:00.003+08:00

hey! mum has been cooking recently and this is what ive been eating. Doesn't look very appetizing tho. She added abit too much wine and i was abit tipsy after that. maybe its psychological effect. shrugs. but i do appreciate her cooking. At least she tried. Thanks mum! (:

Anw, i had this question for quite awhile. And it happens all the time. Here it goes. i was waiting for the red man to turn green in order to cross the road to take my bus. This road do not always have alot of vehicles and it turns green pretty fast. However, everytime when there are no vehicles, i would want to cross the road but something always stopped me when i do so. Sometimes, i would obey to the voice and miss my bus yet other times, i disobeyed the traffic lights and crossed. 3/4 down the road, it turned green! Guilt of disobedience overwhelms me. And im like stuck in betwwen whether to obey or not. or maybe my impatience took hold of me.

its like an omen and a tradition. omen tells you that 'there are no vehicles, you shld cross now' yet tradtion tells you that ' hey! its a traffic light, you shld wait for it to turn green!' kinda thing. I know its kinda silly debating over this, but to one who is pricipled, even the smallest issue burdens you. nevertheless, my stand at the end of the day is to cross when there are no vehicles in sight and to obey when there is. Afterall, traffic lights are meant to protect us and not to restrict us frm missing the bus isn't it?

Went sun tanning with Hannah thang today unfortunally, it rained. :( Got a few pics but i guessed its too obscene to post it up. You can ask to see it if you want. Afterall, im a shy girl. heh. Had fun catching up and tmr's sport's day for me! Going for badminton in the morning, gym in the afternoon and CLM in the evening! Maybe going running at night. heh. elise's gonna get fit! :)

2008-03-13T18:51:00.002+08:00

Hello world!
Im really busy these few weeks. But ive thot of blogging. Just that everytime i wanna blog, something cropped up. Eg: mum took the modem away. -.-

Busy with:
CB prayer meet
Sentosa Food event
going out with my sheep.
running in ppl's mind! HAHA.

Prayer meet was refreshing for me. I took the courage to pray and sing out loud, tho it ended kinda early( 1,1/2 hrs) but i could sense God's presence helping me throughout. With words i know i will neer speak, hidden corrections during worship and everyone get to pray! :) Thank you Lord!

Sentosa event, i was in charge of food(as usual), I could sense that eveyone ate and was full. Some really eat ALOT. I gotta stop them from eating so that others will have a chance to taste the wonderful food we prepared. There was sandwiches of tuna, ham & cheese, choc and egg mayo fillings. Potato salad and bee hoon! plus cordial. It was really nice. I ate me while preparing. heh. YK, angela and weiting helped. And i was only the bread cutter. haha! Went to collect the bee hoon at my auntie's hse. Asked reynard and jiao along. But rey was soo small and while carrying it, the aluminium foil was moulded into his body shape! So i carried it and it was really heavy and burning hot. But we had fun waking up early and laughing at the lack of strength i possess.

ooh, i received a msg from xiuqi that she dreamt o me! I told her i was busy and she said it was because i kept appearing in her dreams! So cheesy! haha. Anw, for those who are concerned, im going for a work interview tmr. it was at bukit batok. im not so sure abt the details yet tho. will tell u guys soon!

Seriously, i wasn't afraid of the working world. im concerned abt whether i can wake up. haha. And, i hope i do enjoy the work, money is not a very big issue to me but i do want a fun job. wad's the point of having lotsa money but u are not happy? alright, ive got to have dinner and meet my shepherd soon!

2008-02-22T01:39:00.002+08:00

everyone's aslp by now. But seems like the more i read kite runner, the more im addicted to it. And, to my disappointment, L is not a good movie as i thot it would be. *shrugs*

movies coming up:
juno
the leap years
10,000 BC
who's gonna watch with me?

Random thoughts:
*I want you to stop harassing me. I want you to go away.* -Amir to hassan
"I fell on my bed, buried my head under the pillow and cried." Amir's regret after those words

Many a times, we said something we do not mean to each other, hurting one another as a result and regretting soon after. Are you guilty of that?
"For what i do is not the good i want to do; no, the evil i do not want to do, this i keep on doing." Rom 7:19
Something is so wrong with me. Sleep elise, everything's gonna be just fine. :)

2008-02-21T13:33:00.003+08:00

I guess i had a violent dream last night.
I woke up with very messy hair, abit of sore eyes and blood on my teeth plus a terrible stomachache. Someone must have punched me real hard. :(

Anw, yst went out with ryan and tee yan. EAT and eat. I was bloated at the end of the day. Went home having bad stomachache and lao since then. here are some of the pictures.

Ryan said i looked like a pornstar in this pic. =/ The wind is overwhelming. Fancy someone using shades at night! What prominent cheeks i have!
Me and ryan trying to be retarded while tee yan trying to figure out how to use her phone.
Blown away by the wind!

Tee yan trying to pull off smoking. haha. Look at her long nails!

Thee's still more, but im lazy to post it up.

Looking forward for the yuan xiao dinner later on! Its long since we last catch up huh? And i dun wanna eat sushi buffet anymore! So Mr len, let's eat some other things can? Discuss more when you are home. :)

Food for thought: would you rather have a frequent meet up with your friends or once in a blue moon since absence makes the heart fonder?

2008-02-20T12:25:00.002+08:00

HAHA.
I just read my brother's blog. it super funny. i almost drool. heh.
Anw, did i ever tell u when i get overly excited, i will drool? haha. weird logic but oh well. that is wad makes mi unique. :)
http://youtiao.wordpress.com/
its the jokes part btw, its abit crude tho. I wonder why people say we are alike. Im decent eh. =/

Anw, im listening to cai hong by jay chou. It such a smoothing tune. :) makes my day.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=RW5R25QH7_s
Im too engrossed till i forgot wad's my purpose for blogging. Let me plan out my monthly schedule then. Since zach's gone, i supposed there will be less supper, movies etc.

lst week, find work, shepherd all my sheep if possible, kim's parade. misc stuff.
2nd week, read as many books, ive got alot to catch up! And, my malay is lagging way way behind. :(
3rd week: exercise! this i must repent. i shall go running at night too. To think i can run fast in sec sch. elise ah elise, u are lagging way way behind. okay, maggie q shall be my motivation! weiting, include me in your exercise scheme. :)
4th week: reward myself with all the things ive done! HAHA. eat and Eat and EAT! I bet i will be skinnier with all the torture ive been through. heh.

2008-02-18T15:08:00.002+08:00

Perseverance.
For the right things.

Im not ready for a relationship nor do i want to initiate anything. Im going for something more than you can imagine. Im going for the message, for saving souls, impacting people, discipling people, doing things that will have an impact in the kingdom of God, nothing less. I hope ypu understand what im driving at. Im not special, just an ordinary person who wants to do her things. So, persevere on the right things, will you?

You wun understand what im doing unless u are in my shoes, serving God alongside, experiencing Him and then you will know why im doing what im doing. Anything that is not of God is not my priority. So are you with me or against me?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TdOT5unBbDA
the song that was sang after sermon which touched me deeply.

2008-02-14T23:58:00.002+08:00

I hate it when people misunderstood me.
And for goodness sake, do show respect by not looking into my inbox!
No words to describe how i feel towards you. Disappointed beyond repair? Utter rudeness?
Question asked: What is the foundation of friendship?
Isn't it trust and repect? Which will eventually lead to truth so on and so forth?
Think about it.

And why am i troubled over this? I must be insane. Ive got better things to do.

Anw, ive got a unit event today. it was seriously hilarous with people getting injured and someone even puked! We played with flour added with rock sugar, mashmellows and straws with rubber bands! I wish to put up the pictures but i din take any. =/

And the best forfeit was to put rubberband( those tie hair ones) on your nose and try to push it down using your facial expressions! SUPER funny! Too bad i dun have the vide0. I almost laugh until i drool!
Denise, can you please write more in centralb blog? heh. THANKS! :)

Good news! My CLs are getting closer! :D

2008-02-01T11:05:00.001+08:00

Im bored!

Din bring my bible and books to read. Class is supp to end early but due to the program chair, we are held back. :(

Here are some fyp pics. With ruth, jeannie, gerlisa and me.

wad prominent cheeks i have! Look like mickey mouse. :( But i like my LONG hair! It seem to grow so much faster. My fren thot i did a hair extension and pulled my hair. :( The feelings behind the smile is hard to put it into words.

anw, i like to talk abt fashion, latest trend, interesting topics of the bible( not how we lead opur grp) and so many things! Its weird when we cant communicate. 'i hate being ard with you' is an overstatement. it sticks and the words sting evertime i think abt it.

I totally agree with angela and her post abt words that hurts and heals. Sometimes when words comes ever so harsh, and the thought of replying simply weights nothing. When you dun care anymore etc, that's when silence is the best. When replying cause more hurts, that's when you dun bother and shove everything aside, slp your day away, hoping that tmr is a better day. To make yourself happy matters more than anything. why make yourself so miserable and pretending to be someone you are not? Speaks sense isn't it?

Opposite either attracts or attacks. -PJ

2008-02-01T08:47:00.000+08:00

YAY!
Last day of school. No more school for the rest of my life!
Dunno whether to feel happy or sad. As for now, im relieved. :)
My eyes are twitching for the past few days. :(
Ive got interesting dreams these days too.
Randomness.

Closeness is when you are comfortable with the person. I got you.

'It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance'

2008-01-27T19:53:00.000+08:00

Dear God,

On sat, I learnt a precious lesson. How to be a righteous shepherd. Flashbacks were everywhere that night. I once thought im one of the best shepherds around, meeting my sheep almost everyday, thinking of them every now and then, dreaming of them doing great things for you, teaching them to be the best they can be etc etc.

Until one day, i found out something about my sheep which scarred me for life. I thought ive alr given my best, thought that everything is okay in her life, thought that she's mend her ways, give her the authority to do things, help her in her credibility again and again, put my trust in her when everyone think otherwise, love her the way she is etc etc. But i was utterly, totally wrong.

Since then, ive been struggling to give my best to all my sheep, for fear of being hurt, being disappointed. It was the period when daniel knows im living in my own world. Where shepherding becomes a responsibilty, a must, doing without love, giving my minimal. I have not met her for months, avoiding her if i can, no contacts whatsoever. Of cos, you gave me nightmares of her every now and then and i was guilty. But i didn't heed your dreams given me, until yesterday, when the teaching was taught and her face showed up ever so often.

I guess ive not gotten over it yet, but to all my sheep, im doing my best as from now, to give as i was before. Because its not your fault and its not fair for you. Bug me for teachings and i'll give. Tell me you are serious abt growing and i'll definitely groom you to my best. I promise. You'll be in my prayers.

I want to be a righteous shepherd. Lord, help me to forgive and forget, not to have bitterness and to love as how you would. If you may, take the cup away from me. I dun wanna ruin a life.
Amen.

Thank God for giving mi a C5, im truly truly thankful. And for zach, teaching me though im not a good student at all. Your effort is finally paid off after so many years. And thanks for the people who were concerned. :)

2008-01-24T13:48:00.000+08:00

oh no oh no oh no
i lost that piece of paper.
With my password and results. :(
Will they send the results to me?

while people are gloating over their B3s from a D7, here i am deprived of mine.
OKAY. I shall be patient to wait for the mail. But the process of waiting sucks.

pass or fail, God u decide. help me to react well IF i fail.
So, people, if i fail, be sure i will MIA for awhile. To my hiding place.
But, i'll be fine.
The thought scares me. =/

2008-01-17T07:17:00.000+08:00

Morning!
you know i was thinking about school and thought there's UT today and it turned out otherwise.
Nevertheless, i was first to appear in class and i conquered the fear of passing the 'mortuary', the darkness of the whole level and quietness of the premise.

Which reminded me of how i overcome my many fears when i first started out. Fear of public speaking, of relating to people, etc etc. And i remembered how God brought me through. I thank God for today that i realised i can be who i am, no need to pretend to be someone im not, to be secure in my simple vocabulary. Indeed i am unique in your sight.

yknow, ive got lotsa thoughts that is within me. Many a times when i thought of sharing them, im afraid of receiving the wrong idea or perhaps giving people the wrong perception and understanding of my thoughts which will in turn make them ponder and wonder what am i thinking about. I am simple, yet my thoughts aren't. If you can understand me just a fair bit of how i derive things, you understand my everything.
Im not a sanguine by nature, but if you have the ability to draw out my thoughts, listen attentively, you have already won me over.
Feel me?

anyway, here's a blog you might want to go to. Interesting and thought provoking posts which will blow your mind. If you do not understand, fear not! Leave a comment and he'll get back to you shortly.

www.thedreamist.wordpress.com

2008-01-16T15:34:00.000+08:00

Funny. I received a mail from my team mate which says:

Hey Bimbo GONG GONG Chan....
Here's my logbook!!!!! Dont send to anyone arh!!!! if not u'll remain a bimbo for the rest of your life...

Regards,
Slut

hahah.. my team consist of 4 females and 1 male.
Im the bimbo, the leader's (ruth) a bitch, jeannie's a slut. -.- The rest no names. heh.
HAHA. im a gong gong cos im very gullable in FYP. And she is jeannie ganchiong teh. haha.

okay, sounds abit vulgar here. but i find it super funny.
And the faci called me striper. cos i always strip wires. -.-
We are in BIOmedical engineering for a reason. Haha.

2008-01-14T15:28:00.000+08:00

Yay! Class ended.
I was browsing through blogs and some really made me think, while some blogs somehow talk abt the same things. Like one talk abt broken friendship and the other mentioned abt emotions. Like there's a link in their blogs. But i particularly like this person's blog and read it often if im online. I was telling denise how witty and humorous she can get. And mind you, she can get 230 over comments! And she din even reply to one. Haha.
The power of words.

If your blog is profound, you'll attract the intellects. If your blog is emo, you'll attract the current generation. If your blog is boring, you'll attract no one. Haha. On the other hand, blogs arent ONLY for others to see, but for yourself to know and update like a journal isn't it?

http://www.xanga.com/museerato

2008-01-14T13:41:00.001+08:00

hello world.
Im having a painful day today.
Managed to go school but i was late. In my current condition, i walk like a snail.
But but but!
my spirit is good today. I din have mood swings. :)
And my frens totally freaked me out but i had a good laugh. heh.

SK and me went for a talk today abt water safety which only lasted for 15mins (praise God!1 more pt to go!) then he went for lunch after that, a smoke. Along the way, he acted as a stroke patient and chanted a few sentences. It was totally maluating and everyone was looking at me cos he kept shouting! I was like omg.. but i was laughing out loud also. To think abt it, SK does influence me quite abit and i realised im a meaner person now. Oh man. BAD BAD influence. But i enjoy him. heh.

AND AND AND! Update of my fyp!
The hardware part of the ECG and EMG circuit is completed! Well done for the hardware team! Now, its my turn, as well as ZL to program the thing.
To think we struggled so much in the last sem to communicate and was screwed by the faci so many times. Now, the whole world knows that we are almost complete!
Thank you lord for the grace you've put me through. For the backstabbing of choosing of grp till now. you are indeed faithful. :))

And so many things i wanna thank God for. Back to class. Till then.

2008-01-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

Okay. im supp to study now. But a quarrel just ended.
A fight between the 'Chans' and the 'Eas'.
I was misunderstood.
My sis just mentioned that she wanna backslide.
All just in a span of 1 hour.

But i was reminded.
Five loaves and two fishes.
He can work miracles.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=mNxw90Ayl74&feature=related
this greatly encourages me.
this is when i learn to trust.

"takes my five loaves and two fishes
do with it as u wish
i surrender
takes my fears and inhibitions
all my burdens and ambitions
u can use it all."

2008-01-07T14:37:00.000+08:00

Start of school day. Another 1 month and im outta school.
Im left to think about what i want.
Give me wisdom its all i ask.

you know, im thinking about wad do people do when they are stressed.
Some became cranky, some eat alot, some cry and some dance.
These are the ways they vent their stress.
as for me, i sing. :)

I liked avril lavigne.
Her voice is powerful.
Her songs kept me thinking.
I identified with some.
tomorrow.
peice out my thoughts. if you can.

I liked the way she is.
Not caring how people view her.
She expressed her feelings in songs well.

Sometimes, ive got alot to say.
But it doesn't seem to come out
my thoughts and feelings,
my bad days.

And these words came:
"What’s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble off
Like I’ve got nothing to say"
-things i'll never say. Avril Lavigne

i shared with someone abt this person
who understood me totally.
without me talking. just the look in my eyes.
tt's why everytime someone do tt, i'll remember the face of tt person.
And i kinda miss this person.

"You see right through me
And I can't hide"
-Naked -Avril

Well, i guess you sure have someone like that in your life, may it be now or in the past.
don't let the friendship pass you by.

wow. i liked this phrase.

If you wanna bring me down
Go ahead and try
-nobody's fool -Avril

2008-01-02T00:56:00.000+08:00

I guess this post would be long cos ive got thoughts on my mind. Read it if you want, skip it you cant take it anymore. :)

hmm. Let's just say. New year, new things? The old has gone, the new has come. And i guess for 2007, there are things ive grown in and there are things ive deproved. (if there's such a word)

Areas ive grown in: courage, peace.
Well, alot of things happened and i guess with courage and peace, i wouldn't have overcome it at all. And its a year of changes and emotional torture i would say. But oh well, im glad its over. Thanks for the people who knew and helped mi with it. But i guess somethings are not meant to be dealt together with others. So im glad tt God went thru it with mi totally and sent help all over. :)

Areas ive deproved: love and controlling of emotions.
I used to be more loving than i am now without judging people and really love them as who we are. But i realised tt im not as loving after things happened and i was really tramatised by it. Tho i may not appear discouraged or whatsoever, but deep down, i do feel something. Till now. And i hope the cup will be taken away frm me in this coming new year. If you may. But of cos, to love, is not exactly sth tt i have struggle in, but to trust, is something tt is hindering me from loving to the best i can. If you get what i mean.

In the area of controlling my emotions. I thought i could easily smoked through most people, but to some (close ones) i totally sucked at it. I became angry and impatient when people
pissed me off with their insensitive words or those trying to prove tt they know it all. Esp abt ministry and how i take care of my sheep. okay, i might be proud here but who likes to be bossed around being told what to do every single time, saying tt they are right and u are wrong? Everyone has their methods of doing things and yea, perhaps im wrong, but i cant change overnight isn't it? But yea, i appreciate the talk and hope it doesn't occur again. I view it as putting down instead of building up. And if ever, after a discussion(mostly im not in it), im quiet, means im thinking of things. Im a slow processor of thoughts. So, do not talk to me or rub things in because u know my words can kill at times.

And so, new year resolutions!
I HOPE to grow fatter. Like to 46 kg? If that's possible, praise God. haha. And to eat healthily. More veg and PLAIN water. Which ive been doing recently. But the primary ones would be to disciple YK and Angela to be official ULs! I hope i can do it fast knowing exactly how to go abt doing it.

Yup! that's abt it. HAPPY NEW YEAR! Tho abit late but better than never!

2007-12-22T02:06:00.000+08:00

While we were all rushing cards and all, a fire broke out opposite my house. :(
Explosions were heard and we could all do nothing except to watch and pray. I think its due to the power supply. Shrugs.
I pray that the people in there are fine. At least let them be christians.
Fire engines are still here tho. At 2:09am.
I thank God that im still safe and sound eating noodles at this late hour.
Thanks to my sis once again. :)

AND, not to forget, we break our goal of 35! We had 43! Now let's see more converts later on! Afterall, what is christmas without christ?

Are you ready for the the service and sentosa thingy??

2007-12-21T00:44:00.000+08:00

This is my pillars. A bunch of crazy people. Let me introduce you. left to right. Yk, elise, weiting, meirong and Angela! It was taken today. And we had great fun knowing one another's secrets and laughing at one another's silly moments.

Okay. this is Yk. Abit blur but yea, had quite a good conversation with him today. Breakthrough for today. Shall see for other days! :)) Im really happy for this little breakthrough tho.

Anyway, Central B's gonna have more CL gathering. We got to know one another and bond with the group. It a good kick start for today. Out to hunt out for more eating places! :D btw, opp central's bah kut teh is nice! Go try it people! 4 thumbs up!

2007-12-20T14:21:00.000+08:00

Okay. Im gonna be really random today. So take caution in reading it.

First realisation ive had. Im too self-centered. If you noticed, all my blog posts revolves around I, me, myself. Ive not talked about my people for the longest time ever.
God, help me regain back my passion once again.

Ive having nightmares everynight. Dreams of group not growing, people backsliding, someone chasing me, wanting something really badly from me(which i dunno wad) bad quarrels often ending up in me screaming in my dreams, my past and some demons thingy. More often waking up in shock. I think im in emotional distress. Shrugs.
God, help me to be aware of my own emotions.

Selective sharing. Recently i learnt to select my sharings. I shared to Sharlene certain struggles i faced recently and i realised tt i keep talking abt this particular person. And sharlene was saying: out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks. I guessed its true. i enjoyed the presence so much. I know who not to share my ministry woes to, who not to share abt my families thingy, who not to share my relationship issues etc. But i know who i can share freely too. :)
God, help me to be balanced in this area.

Recently, ive made this person really upset. To a point tt we don't communicate anymore. I tried to call, but to no avail. i initiated a meet up but no replies. Im sick of being pro-active but yea. im sorry. I know one day, you'll come back to me. It takes time to heal, isn't it?
God, help me to be humble to admit my mistakes.

Ive got a girlfriend. haha. odd days, she'll be my boyfriend. even days im the guy. haha. sounds fun. But tt's how i relate to my sheep. And we are close enough to share things. Or maybe i think it this way. Not sure abt her tho. :) And mind you, she's really demanding. Wait till the odd days! HAHA.
God, thank you for this friendship.

Ive always give people the wrong impression. You know sometimes i can be quite blunt or too open. But im like that. If you are uncomfortable, do tell me k? I dun want any miscommunication. I dun mind you being open. Just don't do anything funny like taking of your pants or whatsoever, i'll be stunned. Haha. Not tt they never do before, but pls respect us girls. Or at least tell us before hand.
God, help me to be senstive to people around me.

I love my little private world of mine. So if i shared you some part of it, be grateful. You know sometimes i will stammer and blush when im very nervous abt sharing certain issues. Esp when you gaze into my eyes. I will tend to look away. BUT, im fine with it now. Thanks to you.
God, help me to relate well with others.

Lastly, cgo8! ive got 6 more schools to complete. Ive got wineskin, all i need is people strolling in. Retain them and disciple them well. Jia you people! Im going cg later. For the first time this year. I know im gonna enjoy it and hopefully make impact!
God, help me to be fruitful!

expect the unexpected and you'll be surprised.
man. i miss you so much.

RUNAWAY - Avril Lavigne

2007-12-17T15:36:00.000+08:00

RUNAWAY-Avril Lavigne

Got up on the wrong side of life today
Crash the car and I'm gonna be really late
My phone doesn't work cus it's out of range
Looks like it's just one of those kind of days
You can't kick me down
I'm already on the ground
No you can't, but you couldn't catch me anyhow
Blue skies, but the sun isn't coming out, no
Today is like I'm under a heavy cloud
And I feel so alive
I can't help myself
Don't you realize

[Chorus]
I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away
So how I'm doing, if you're wondering
I'm in a fight with the world but I'm winning
Stay there, come closer it's at your own risk
Yeah you know how it is life can be a ____

Im doing EMG yet again and reading blogs and thought tt some poeple's blog, when you entered it, its like a church. Everything is about God and ministry and stuff. No personal life, no learnings about life no testimonies or whatsoever. Abit like no life huh? No offence but u get my drift. On the other hand, i thought maybe its just a me thing tt im NOT tt spiritual which often make me struggle whether to or not to declare my blog to others. Im being human yet maybe too human tt people will be stumbled. So im a confused kid now. to or not to?

Runaway to my own world of quietness. To solitude. :)

2007-12-17T00:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZACHARY YOUNG DAN FENG!

okay. well, today's your birthday. I shall be the first to affirm you. haha. We've been friends for pretty long. Serving alongside with Daniel and Ethan. Got to know you slightly more in the recent year and to learn from you over dinner tables or supper tables. Sometimes knowing someone close may not be a good thing. Precisely ive known you for so long, im lost for words. And this might not be the best affirmation i will give. That's a disclaimer btw. But ive really learnt much frm you, be it whether i verbalised it or not, show it or not but it just keep me thinking most of the time though at times i appear to be disinterested about the things u discussed with daniel, but deep down im learning from your mistakes and thinking how to apply in my own unit. You've taught me certain things about life. Correcting me at times. Rebuke me when neccessary and i guess you are one tt will dare to approach me, telling me tt im wrong and to change without knowing the consequences of doing tt. I remembered you saying tt im the most prideful woman ive ever seen on earth, and i do not disagree. But im making the effort to change and be humble. After stating all these, im trying to say tt u do have an impact in my life, someone who is able to influence me in many areas and just to tell you this, i appreciate you and and to be your friend, supporting you and encouraging you when you need it. If there is ever a chance, i would want to be under you, learning frm your leadership.
and not to forget, thanks for tolerating my quietness at times, my stares when im angry and the many times when i refused to say im sorry. happy 20th birthday.

agape,
elise.

2007-12-16T22:54:00.000+08:00

Im vexed. About alot of things. I think and I thought tt it is not right to feel this way. Yet i feel this way. Do you feel me? Not trying to emo or whatsoever. No all things can be said out loud.

Anyway, i had a bad dream yesterday which totally freaked me out. I woke up at 4 and wanted to msg everyone i had a really bad dream. I was in cold sweat and tears. I dreamt tt my group doesn't want to grow, tt they want things their own way. Ive got no support frm the CLs and im left standing alone. Scary. After watching warlords, I thought tt the support coming frm the ground is so impt to win the battle. Do i even have ALL the support? Shrugs. I couldn't sleep and was out of focus the whole day.

Celebrated Angela's birthday. It was the sweetest thing our cg has done so far. We went ben & jerry in the early afternoon. Zach and SY wrote a song for her. I could tell she was very touched and the song was about her. And the rest as usual. =) I couldn't help but feel abit ... jealous. sigh. elise, why are you so carnal? And i dun like it when ppl know wad im feeling. Maybe its an ego thing bah. The thing is, how can the church's celebration beat the ones outside church?! Frankly speaking, i dun like spending it with my ULM. Not becos it sucks or anything, but yea, maybe cos of the disappointment i face every year? shrugs.
Well, high expectation = high disappointment. Get use to life elise. Not everything will go your way.

Well, i remembered one of my best birthday celebration i had with my people.
One that they came my house at midnight and cooked things for me! I was extremely touched and thank God for their efforts. And the affirmation was really heartwarming and sweet. Thanks to the CC gals. My pillars. I will never forget that incident.

With my friends. Drove me to mount faber park blind-folded me and piggybacked me to this place and when i opened my eyes, i saw the beautiful stars above me. I was totally awed and teared. I spent the whole night there till i fall aslp and was sent back home safe and sound.
Wonderful friends ive got. Irreplaceable. Thank God for u.

What i learnt during camp: Even if i gain the whole world, i will eventually forfeit my soul. So i serve to my best. God, my lst love.

God, help me not to get discouraged over things i do not have control. I will do to my best and help me to be secure in leading the grp and knowing that im leading them to you. Grow the grp despite cicumstances and help bond the unit tgt. you know ive done my best and teach me to understand your heart cry for the people under my care. I know you will always be behind me being my cheerleader and the shoulder you gave during my down times. Thank you for just being there. there's no replacing of you. No one.

2007-12-14T15:13:00.000+08:00

SAVE ME!!
Im dying in class. With the wet weather and the noise outside class.
Im falling asleep REAL soon. :(

jiu ming. pang wo pay attention in class he make wo de class more huo li. mei ge ren dou yao si le. gan xie zhu. ah men. haha.

Update my blog abt camp when im more awake.
Ciaoz.

PICTURES!

2007-12-13T15:03:00.001+08:00

I guess these teach us certain stuff. And to do things to our very best.Reminds me of Nike's slogan.

JUST DO IT. anyway.

Don't stop building what you are building. You never know who you are building or what you can achieve.

Build the youth of today, win the world tomorrow. That's my conviction.

10151035! -My goal for Central B. We will get there!End Dec 2007.

2007-12-07T13:12:00.000+08:00

“There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won’t anymore and who always will. So don’t worry about people from your past, there’s a reason why they didn’t make it to your future.”

very true isn't it?
It will soon come to an end after my tertiary and the end of youth ministry. :(

A memorable week.

2007-12-07T00:51:00.000+08:00

I was really busy this week. With watching movies continuously to eating like nobody's business. HAHA. Tell you what i eat k. Fish n Co on monday, tues i forgot. Wed, some jap resturant with the DMM, some buffet thingy with my ppl and tmr im not sure wad yet. Cos dewen's treating! hahah!

I would say i had great time of knowing myself abit more through the affirmation and im really glad tt i impacted lives which i din even realised. I thank God for using me unknowingly and i get to know my strengths! Which i have been asking myself for quite awhile now.

Anyway, Im really grateful for those who remembered and called. I was extremely touched when XIUQI called from taiwan and wished me happy bday. I was soo shocked eh. AND it was a pleasant surprise. NOT anyone could surprise me tho. And xiuqi is one of the few. =)

As for daniel's dmm, they blindfold me and i walked to BORDERS building and walked right into a filming! And someone was like hey, be careful, there's someone near you. HAHA. I was scared and embarrassed. =l It was a jap restaurant. Good ambience and interesting desserts. Ate all the weird looking stuff. Haha. Too bad there's no pictures. :( they gave a white ribboned pair of pumps. AND oh! Winnie's so sweet! She was away to HK and she sent this letter with this handmade necklace with TINKERBELL with it. I was totally amazed at her creativity and craftmanship! She totally won my heart! THANK YOU WINNIE! :D

My dmm. Yiyou conned me to eat with her. HAHA. Mind you, she sure can eat tons of food. Had buffet near Bugis area and we had great fun laughing at one another. With yk as the meatball eater, Mei Rong as the mushroom eater, hannah's the egg, weiting's the noodles, angela gave up halfway yiyou's the prawn and im the meat eater! haha. YK can really finish the balls! He eats non stop! After that, yiyou brought us to this famous dessert stall and we settle there. OOH! they made a video for me too. Very sweet and efficient. Yiyou only spent 2 hours making it. AMAZING! They gave me a bible study book! :D So tt i can lead them better! HAHA.

joke:
guy 1: oh my god!
guy 2: yes my son?
HAHA. tt's wad i remembered the most other than the heartfelt affirmation.

ooh! not to forget, thanks for the pressies! i love the ZARA jacket! 3more to go! =) I will get them myself. HAHA.

2007-12-03T15:19:00.000+08:00

Yst was a fun day where mi, Teresa and Roy went out to eat at Fish n Co. Nice catching up and great chat! Here's our msn conversation in sch. It was an impromptu decision.

Teresa! says:
if not it'll be other days lor
Teresa! says:
or you wanna eat super fast on wed
elise says:
nah
elise says:
i dun wanna choke and die on my bday
elise says:
haha
Teresa! says:
HAHAHAHAHA!
Roy says:
touch wood !
elise says:
hahah
Roy says:
dying by suffocation is the worst
Teresa! says:
oh
Teresa! says:
by drowning
Teresa! says:
poor dragon boater
elise says:
yea lor
elise says:
=l
Roy says:
"/
elise says:
eh
elise says:
so how?
elise says:
today ah?
Teresa! says:
roy
Teresa! says:
free today?
Teresa! says:
got $$ not?
Teresa! says:
LOL
Roy says:
o_o
elise says:
hahaha
elise says:
ive got 20 only
elise says:
enuf?
Teresa! says:
aiyo
Teresa! says:
enough la
elise says:
cos i din bring my atm
elise says:
=l
Teresa! says:
you bday girl
Roy says:
haha bday threat
Teresa! says:
shldnt be paying in the first place
Teresa! says:
=)
Teresa! says:
threat or treat?
Roy says:
is treat
Teresa! says:
wah
Teresa! says:
scare the shit outta me!
Teresa! says:
lol
elise says:
hahaha
elise says:
threat!
Teresa! says:
so how
Teresa! says:
today?
Teresa! says:
wah, damn impromptu
Roy says:
hm
Teresa! says:
LOL
elise says:
after ur ut?
Roy says:
glass house
Roy says:
?
Roy says:
or..
Roy says:
cwp ?!
Teresa! says:
cwp dont have!!
elise says:
glass hse!
Teresa! says:
amk hub then got
Roy says:
ook
Teresa! says:
glass house la
Teresa! says:
more romantic
Teresa! says:
HEHEHEHE
Roy says:
pork mall
Roy says:
pARK mall
elise says:
HAHA
Teresa! says:
park mall la!!
Teresa! says:
pork mall!!
Teresa! says:
hahahahahahaha!!!
elise says:
omg!
Teresa! says:
hahaha
Roy says:
ha ha
elise says:
im stil laughing over pork mall
Roy says:
halal k
elise says:
HAHA
Teresa! says:
hahahahah
This msn conversation duper funny! I LMAO in class yet again and was reminded by the carrot head. Once again, its roy after all. haha. And we miss your sandwiches! :D

2007-11-30T13:13:00.000+08:00

My birthday is coming. I was looking forward and not so looking forward at the same time. Afterall, its my 21st bday. Wanted to celebrate it with my mum by just having buffet at Sakura this sunday. But she cant seem to take leave on tt day. Of cos, she knows that i will be spending my actual day with my friends. Its on wed. And ive got the dreadful FYP. But i guess its gonna be done soon.

The software team has come out with the ECG and EMG signals and it seem pretty alright! So we are now looking for a case to infuse the 2 circuits together. Hopefully the hardware team get it up soon and very soon. :) Now pp's over, ive got CE and FYP and tt's it! Im done with RP! yay! :D

oh yea, i guess i'll just put down the bday list for those who will have a hard time getting me one. It NOT a must to give anw. Just thought it would be better if i write it down so tt nobody will ask again. Easier for me and u too. :)

Guitar
bible study book
wallet (not too bulky ones)
bottoms (skirts/ jeans)
bikini! (strips kind/ with -------)
havanas slippers
pumps / greek-like sandles
money (parents)

That's about it so far. And no soft toys and keychains please! I dun have mind celebrating at a place filled with stars and just spend the night gazing at it and fall asleep on the grass! eh, okay, abit too fairlytale. haha. But seriously i dun mind. I dun mind good food too! Seems more practical too. No cakes please unless its ice cream cake from swensens! Kidding. Anything will do. I appreciate all your efforts. Telling u guys in advance. :)

Disclaimer: Im not a materalistic person. The above list is just a guideline. A simple happy birthday can make my day too. :)

That's all about my bday thingy. Let's talk about yst. I thought i had a coma! I slpt frm 2am till 3pm! From 4pm till 8pm! These are the longest hours i ever slpt! I couldn't wake up for sch and din even hear the alarm ring. I dreamt throughout and din have deep slp too. Had a splitting headache and couldn't walk straight thereafter. Went for supper and tt was the first proper meal i ate tt day, after tt slpt back again. I cant believe i can be such a pig! Haha.

2007-11-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

Good news and bad news.

Good news: My pp's presentation is over! The comments wasn't tt good though. But should be able to. Thank God the one tt did on starbucks was not the same time slot as me! Phew!

Bad news: my lappy's screwed. which means i gotta borrow it everyday from the sch from now on. Which is really really bad. :C

And, im really confused on Angela's case. Help me to dicern and make good judgements. Thank you lord.
Actually i do have alot of things to write. But im kinda tired today. So another day, of it ever comes.

2007-11-28T01:14:00.000+08:00

Apparently I learnt much over supper table yst.

What Ive thought through:
Why am i still in youth ministry
Who can take over me?
What are my unique features?
What makes me different/stand out?
Teachable moments are important for informal shepherdings

I thought deep and couldn't figure it out. Maybe its time to move on. They say why do things when others can do it on your behalf? Be useful and bless others instead. Which makes great sense to me. Youth ministry is meant for the youths, isn't it?

Why have a shepherd and a leader at the same time? Why cant your shepherd be your leader as well? As in 2 in 1. Why make things so hard for the leader and the shepherd?
Perhaps i need to get my fundamentals right again.
Align me back to the basics God. Thank you.

If i cant lead myself, i cant lead others.
Im not satisfied. why not me instead?! :(

grow Grow GROW!

2007-11-27T16:09:00.001+08:00

My lappy died on me today. It took 2 hours to connect to VPN and it hanged everytime i log in MSN! So my kind friend helped and I thank God tt he's a IT expert! Though the causes are still unknown, Im still grateful to him.

God, help my lappy to function properly so that it will not affect my UT and PP presentation. Thank you lord.
Thanks for all who commented on my pp poster and helped in it. :) Bless me in my pp presentation tt i won't be too nervous and forget my lines! haha.

OOH! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIEL!